benzo addict are you one ??????

Benzo,s strike fear in the most strongest person, why ADDICTION. I am a lorazepam or ativan there both the same different name thats all. Now can you ever be stable on a dose ,or will you always want more. Me i used to be on 12mg a day , now 4mg, i lost nearly every brain cell getting down to that level . It was a liveing death, i can go no further down, i need the 4mg as my body now wont let me ditch it . Its a part of me now like my body needs it to survive. Miss that 4mg an I tail spin into the realms of distrution. No GP or P DOC can take it from me it in my med files as a must have. So you can level to some degree, but it seems you have to go behond the danger level, an to suffer withdrawl of the highest level to come back down to a theraputic dose of sorts. Me i take 2mg in the morning an 2 mg at night, so long as i take them im ok, BUT i have a battle on at the moment . after being in hospital on a none mental illness i was given tramadol as a pain killer on top of my sertraline. a combo dommed to fail, an send me into the realms of the monsters. So you know what the fed me to bring me out//////////yep lorazepam by the hand full. so now im detoxing again plus im anemic through the trama so im nuked as well. Ativan or lorazepam whatever you want to call it, has saved me life, an near as dam taken it . We 2 have a weird respect , she will stop me from hurting, but will kick me in the nuts at the same time. I wont say i wish i had never taken, it because i may be dead if i hadent. I bet im not he only one on hear that is addicted to benzo,s even if you try to fool yoursef your not.

I take clonazepam I think you call it Klonopin or something in the US. I've been on 2mgs morning and 2mgs night for about 2 years now and feel fine on it. I have never felt the need to go higher but then I'd hate to image having to lower it as I know that the level of anxiety I was experiencing almost drove me to suicide when I wasn't on it.

I know my doctors don't prescribe benzos anymore so it's a matter of finding a good pdoc who understands that quality of life is more important then what drugs you take. Mine is fine with that as he sees I don't abuse them. Maybe I am addicted to them I don't know, I do know you wouldn't get them off me but like I said I have no urge to take more.

I'm sorry to hear what you're going through just remember what I said though.

Quality of life is more important then if you have to take a certain medication to have it.

Emily-Lee wrote:I take clonazepam I think you call it Klonopin or something in the US. I've been on 2mgs morning and 2mgs night for about 2 years now and feel fine on it. I have never felt the need to go higher but then I'd hate to image having to lower it as I know that the level of anxiety I was experiencing almost drove me to suicide when I wasn't on it.

I know my doctors don't prescribe benzos anymore so it's a matter of finding a good pdoc who understands that quality of life is more important then what drugs you take. Mine is fine with that as he sees I don't abuse them. Maybe I am addicted to them I don't know, I do know you wouldn't get them off me but like I said I have no urge to take more.

I'm sorry to hear what you're going through just remember what I said though.

Quality of life is more important then if you have to take a certain medication to have it.

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THAT IS VERY TRUE, as i said what is addiction if its helping, some have to take blood pressure tabs all there life i look at it a simular. I would have been lost mabye dead without them years ago , They are my friend an my enemy, we carnt live without each other