Unique type of depression

I want to share my story and what's been happening to me. I would like a lot of posts to this from many different people, not just moderators. I feel depressed because I haven't earned anything lately and especially because I didn't earn a letter in high school. I really want a cool letter jacket but I didn't get mine because it was an ugly jacket. I want another school's first, then I might think about my own high school. But if I had earned an award I could have probably gotten any high school letter I wanted. Also I don't have many t-shirts or hats from my HS. NO ONE told me in high school the letters had to be earned and am VERY angry about that. ###$ those bastards. I have a clothes fetish so all these things are VERY important to me and I will not get over it til I have at least one cool letter jacket, that HS lanyard, and more t-shirts, and the school's football helmet.

I feel bad because I didn't accomplish anything and I feel in a rush because I am leaving this apartment next year. I don't think I'm going to get all what I wanted done and will have to leave a lot of stuff behind in storage. I have decided to go into a group home temporarily in order to turn my sleep schedule around, achieve the driver's license, and get my physical therapy career going. I hate having many appointments every week (I don't work). Because I don't work, that makes me feel even more depressed - no cool work clothes.

Can't someone here offer to send clothes to me please? Preferably high school stuff? I am so down about this....and it hurts to not earn anything recently in last few years except a purple feedback star on ebay.

Hi Sneako,thats an interesting post you made.
What is it that you hope to gain or change in yourself that will help you be happy with life?
I cant help feel you wish to change your mood with material objects instead of looking in yourself.
I think i would be doing you an injustice if i didnt ask about that.
As just meeting your clothes needs i think would just prolong your habits and not really help with any root issues.
Infact recieving clothes because of your fetish or neurosis would probably encourage the problem more.
Where does this come from or when did your need for clothes and status become so important? In other words when did this way of thinking first appear.
Also i am curious what age you are.Im from Ireland so i dont know age ranges for what you call high school etc.

I have no idea where it came from. I'm thinking it came from working at McDonald's and being a cashier, seeing all the cool clothes people wore and got frustrated with that job cuz there was just food involved - nothing with clothes except the uniforms. At that job no one even told me McDonald's ordered from Barco Uniforms. I'm 26. I've had a sports jersey fetish since about the 6th or 7th grade. I really regret not getting the Menomonee Falls Panthers team jerseys - both black and white versions because the team is now defunct and the one in charge of it all passed away so who knows where those jerseys are now.

I said I wanted a lot of replies to this and only got 1. Please post more.

Get a real job an buy as many cloths as you like. Or join the army an get the uniform you crave. Dont worry about trousers as you get you legs blow off after the training in afganistan