Warning: This is a long rant about the insignificance of our lives... I wish I didn't feel this way, but I do.
I am not searching for a meaning in life. Not a purpose of any sort that must be fulfilled or something that must be sorted out and what we must do because there is no such thing. However, everyday I go through life thinking ack what is the point of all of this?? Life seems so eh. The conversations that people have with other people discusses nothing but the most inane details of their life i.e. phone service, neighbors, beauty products, sports.... : sigh: just seems so pointless to me yet this is what we talk about on a daily basis. I just don't see the point in all of this. Mostly in our existence here.
You can argue that there is no point in anything. We just exist... but then why do so? fear of death? nothing more to it ? just enjoy it? sigh. Biologically, speaking we are here to procreate and ensure the survival of the species. However, we are highly intelligent creatures and procreation in the short run does nothing for us except to increase our responsibility. Having children I believe is not the answer.
I tried so hard to believe in a god some sort of divine entity and have faith, but yet logic and common sense gets me every time so that explanation is out of the loop. For you religious people out there, I am glad for you that you believe it , but please do not "share/spread/attempt to convert me." Religion is great if people would just keep it to themselves and quit trying to sell their idea to others. Again, I am glad the invisible man in the sky works for some people, but it just doesn't work for me. I REALLY REALLY wish I could just believe, but I don't.....
This is where my depression lies, just a overall blah feeling, insignificance. Nothing seem to really matter in this world. I mean if we die, we die it is inevitable. "make the most of your time here" some say but that is not the least bit comforting at all. I feel very lost in this world. Like no one understand me. I am just surprised that most people don't question our existence. They are not bothered by it, everyone just keeps themselves busy with activities and they worry about wedding planning, matching outfits, other people's opinions of them and just general $#%^ like that and in the end none of it matters. I too am guilty of going through life worrying about things like that, but then I just think well who gives a $#%^ anyway it is all the same.
Is there someone out there who has found a somewhat satisfactory answer to the insignficance of our existence? Besides just live it anyway, treasure what you have and other sayings like that. Who else is troubled by this besides me? I have been depressed for 5 years.. and I am still bothered