how do i find terrorists?

when i was younger i was enjoying everyday and i haven't even gotten to the point where younger was so long ago in what has been of my life i've given up on almost everything i've tried at, the most luck i've had in my life was winning £2 off a scratch card that i gave to my brother later that day, since age 9 i was in and out of hospital regularly and have just started to show signs of growing out of it, but i couldn't care less i hate that everything in life bores me i pray every day and have done since as long as i can remember but everything (small though it may be) i have achieved or gained has been given to me by family or i have earned it and so i have finally figured out that there is no god. So as i have nothing to offer to life in the future i wish to end it for those who don't use it to the full and choose to end others, i realize i would be no better than them but at least i would save those who do want to live, worst comes to worst there is a god and i get eternal damnation but if he hasn't shown me that isn't my path by then frankly i don't wish to meet him.
I'm Seb i just turned 15 i also added this here to ask if anyone had any tips for my depression.

What you are expressing here is interesting, and very much wrong morally-speaking. Firstly, you would not be 'saving' anyone by ending the lives of others. Why must everyone appear to you to be making the most of their lives? There are many mellow people out there who are quite content to live and die in the same town/city, and never branch out. Others, however, need more in life and end-up moving from place-to-place for stimulus.

In my opinion, you would be better-off trying to improve your own life some more, instead of resigning to the current frame of mind that you have. Your life can change - very much-so - if you are willing to put in the effort. I was in your position dude, so I am quite aware that things can change. Some effort really is needed though.

In an ideal situation, what would you like to eb doing?

Kevin

PS - The most I ever won was 16 Irish pounds at a horse-racing festival. However, I managed to see Seán Connery that day too - an added bonus. Actually - no - it just occured to me that I won much more than that over the past two years...

i have been in the same place as you. very mad at spinning my wheels....no matter what you do you get no recognition. fed up with everyone getting ahead with little effort, meanwhile you bust your ass and get nothing. the things you have interest in have run the course and boring you out of your mind. I HAVE BEEN THERE and i am 30.

step one: you need to talk to a counselor...maybe a family member...but sometimes a stranger is much easier. contact your local mental health.

step two: try new things. or take a break from the things you are doing. go buy a new cd or download some new music. pick up a comic book, a new dvd, go to the movies. if you have friends that you can trust, take them along, if you were like me and didnt have friends....... go by yourself, enjoy yourself. i learned that i am the only one that understands me and alone time is very valuable.

step 3: chill the hell out. cool your jets and take a nap. sleep is very important and you sound tired. I HAVE BEEN THERE, EVEN AT 15, I COULD HAVE USED A GOOD NAP!

as far as religion/god.....thats a slippery slope. i can recommend you read books by carl sagan, lewis black (me of little faith..its hilarious) and watch a few joe rogan vids on youtube. comedians have very interesting pespectives on religion.

carl sagan is not comedian however. he was an astrophysicist and had someone turned me on to him at your age, life would have been a lot different. in the respect of life and religion he can open your eyes to new things, just be prepared to have your thinking cap on. faith and religion is so interesting to me. its amazing to study what people but belief in (that also applies to science, but thats a whole other topic!)

terrorists organizations are a farse and are used for fear mongering (politics). i will go into that a little more if you are interested

you did say something interesting tho. everything you have....you "earned". BE PROUD AS HELL OF THAT. no matter how small...its still an achievement. draw, write, build, design, get a camera and take pics, start a blog........get it out.

i am an artist and have been where you are.......one aggrevation from busting somebodies ass on a daily. it sucks but there are ways to deal with it. report back and update your status...you will find lots of help where you least expect it.

http://digitalvillain.moonfruit.com/#
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