need help with university studies

I am entering my third year of college as a biology major. My goal originally was to become a doctor but now I doubt whether I can do it. Towards the final years of high school I became really lazy and unmotivated; although I'm not sure if I was always like that. Anyway, I was never able to overcome it ,and now, because of my laziness and stupidity I have lost my scholarship due to my 2.61 GPA. Also, I joined two clubs to help me make a more attractive candidate, but I haven't done anything noteworthy. I haven't done community service or research or acquired clinical experience. I think I am stupid and incompetent. I want to kill myself. It doesn't matter if I work hard because I am going to fail. I fell trapped. I feel like I am fit to only do manual labor or something else that doesn't pay well. It hurts my pride to think that I am not able to do intellectual work. my parents have low paying jobs so I know that these jobs only bring financial hardship and misery. I went to a psychologist at my school to talk but he couldn't help. how can anyone help a moron? he gave me 3 options-take an expensive test that checks if you have mental disabilities, take medication for depression and go to the career center to find out what you want to do.

Hey- I felt the same way after I didnt last a semester in Engineering school ( my dad, mom, and older brother are in the field)...

My only advice: Life isnt about how much money you make. If you work hard, you can succeed, no matter how stupid you are.

Secondly, it gets easier. I switched to psychology (and love it- it's easy i suppose-def not intellectually simulating but emotionally fulfilling and interesting) You have to learn to love what you have instead of wishing for what you dont...


haha sorry for all the cliches but financial problems suck but life goes on (thank god)

What do you plan on doing now? (im sure you dont really need to go talk to someone about it- do some research

I taught high school and college for many years. I do not think you are stupid. Perhaps, you are in a field that you really do not like. I majored in biology, but it may not be for everyone. I wonder how much work you are doing at your studies. Some people need to study a lot. I used to study dozens of hours for a single test. Once I studied 50 hours straight for a final in ed psy. I was desperate to get out of the poor community where I grew up. And, I loved science. It is important to do what you love.

I would suggest you look into your dreams, your real dreams. There are many good books on this topic. On my website, I have a link to a site where you can download a book, Wishcraft, for free. It is the best, in my opinion, for finding our your purpose, or destiny.

Good Luck,
Jim S