Time to give up?

I am 30 years old, alcoholic, and I hate myself. my apartment has turned into a pigsty of epic proportions but icant seem to sum up the will to do anything about it. I dont take care of myself. I've put on weight. I want to die every time I look in the mirror so I avoid it. I barely get my bills paid on time, Ive run up staggering credit card debt, my car is failing on me andi cant afford to replace it. Ive been at the same mediocre job for years. My health is failing now too, my left leg has been numb and tingling for a couple days now.

All around me the people I know are stable.. getting married.. having normal lives.. and everything here is just falling further apart, the health issues most recently.

I just feel like its time to give up. I am fundimentally broken as a human being. I can't even take care of myself. I can barely take care of my fish. I'm sick of being broken and watch everything go doewn the tubes with no sign of it ever getting better just continually worse. I havent been able to sleep because of the tingling leg.

i am not in terhapy or on any drugs, I just cant seem to find the energy to look into that. I guess its easier to just slowly die.

It just feels ineivtable now.

Hi, Justsomebody! You're not going to die. Please try to do something for yourself. Go take a walk, have a warm bath and clean your place up. You don't have to do anything you're not comfortable with. Take it easy on yourself.
Do you think there is a reason for this, like something in your past? You can talk here.

Justsomebody,

Please you have to try and keep your head up. I can relate to wanting to just give up....do you have anyone that you can talk to??? You just need that person to give you a little push. Try doing little things first, I know it's hard to find the energy to do anything but try and start with yourself..you can take it one day at a time and try do do something different everyday.

But please don't give you are are very young and still have a whole life ahead of you, it's not time for you to give up.

It took me years before I was able to get help but I got the strength to go out and get it. Try to do that for yourself, once you get the help everything will fall back into place...you need to take care of you right now.

Let me know how you are doing.

You are not just somebody. You are somebody.

Winston Churchill said once about the point of his success;

"Never,never,never,never, never give up."

So answering to your question : no it is not time to give up.

Get some professional help.

Additional advices;

Go to your Library and rent books,cds or dvds on personal development .
Here are some authors you might want to consider: Anthony Robbins, Brian Tracy, Dan Millman.
Fasting - liquid diet - has enormous power to clean your body and soul.
When we are depressed it is mostly caused by chemical imbalances in our body.When you cleans your body the toxins will be released from the system and certain hormonos are releasing into the blood stream as well which can give you temporary bliss or happiness .

Talk to your doctor before you'd start a cleansing and do that. Even a 3 day fasting can make miracles.

We all have our own difficulties in life. There is not a single person who is 100% happy all the time. This is nature. You can not change that.
But you can change your approach your behavior toward the challenges you face.

Lift your chin up and accept the fact that we are here for you and ask questions somebody will get back to you with some encouragement.

life is awesome

Zoltan the bold Hungarian

Do you know what could have set this off? How long has this been going on?


I've been depressed, too lately. I had the moments where I hated myself to no end and felt life was hopeless no matter what I did. Still get the self-hatred at times, but the hopelessness persists strongly. After crying spells, I feel like everything will be fine, and I *can* make it that way.
I too lost the will to 'live'. Stopped doing things I normally enjoyed, and put off responsibilities. Obviously this only makes life worse. Depression tends to keep itself perpetuated this way.

A walk will help. It's simple, but it does. At my darkest levels, walking in the woods on my own makes me feel so much better. I go in feeling hopeless and wishing I was dead, and come out feeling enlightened. Stand inside a quiet, secluded place with the fresh air, birds chirping, and tranquil nature sights and let your mind wander wherever it pleases. That's what it is, tranquil.

It hard getting the motivation to do so, but force yourself to do some housework. It's easy to do once you actually start it. You should feel accomplished once you're done.

I'm still working out of mine. In recovery, all you can do is baby step through...