Mornings (rant)

It's always toughest for me in the mornings. I spent a lot of time last night trying to calm down enough to sleep. Now it's as if I'm too calm. I don't feel like doing anything. I just want to go back to bed. But I have 4 classes today, and I have to leave in 20 minutes. As always, my mind argues with itself.

"You're sick, just go back to bed. It'll make you feel better."
"You can't miss these classes or else you'll fail the semester and don't forget that you paid a lot of money to go to college in the first place."
"I'm so tired. I can't handle going to classes today. Who cares if I fail one semester? I can retake it next year."
"College is expensive, you can't afford to waste half a year sleeping."

On and on...
So who's right and who's wrong? Should I stay or should I go? It seems another day that fatigue is going to win. Stuck in indecision, time itself decides for me. My mind tries to rationalize the guilt away.

"Well, at least you can spend your day off doing productive things. Work on homework or finish your laundry or get your car's emissions tested."

...but deep inside I know that it's wishful thinking. All I'm really going to do is lie in bed, hiding under the covers and feeling as if the entire world is pressing down upon me.

Hey,

I know that sort of wishful thinking... ...It's like you pretend to yourself that you are going to do things different, but you know that you won't. I do this all of the time but for something unrelated to your problem.

I think that you are caught in a routine - Routines can be tough to break out of. What time are you required to get up at by the way? Perhaps setting your alarm at a different time or just hopping straight out of bed as soon as you wake-up would help. I don't know really - just do something differently. Going to bed at a different time would help too, I'm sure.

Kevin.

Yeah I'm in the exact situation pretty much, its like when I think about all the assignments I have to do, getting dressed is a challenge so I just lie there in bed.

But I've started to change my thinking, the thing with university/college is that you can always do it next year so i just say to myself "you might aswell do it this year". I think gettin into a routine helps like 9-5 and dont stress too much if you dont stick to it straight away, just have a go.
sometimes before bed, i like to write/think "i will go to class" "i will spend one hr on that essay", i dont know why this works i think its just a more positive thing to think about rather than "i've got to do this, and this and this"

well, think about what you have to lose (and what you have to gain possibly?). is there anything important you will miss if you don't go today? any tests or important lectures? what about your attendance, how is that? maybe you just need a mental health day. it might help alleviate some of the feelings of stress and malaise you're feeling. or maybe not, but it's worth a try.

lobos wrote:But I've started to change my thinking, the thing with university/college is that you can always do it next year so i just say to myself "you might aswell do it this year". I think gettin into a routine helps like 9-5 and dont stress too much if you dont stick to it straight away, just have a go.

Yes, I have also changed my thinking regarding college-work. Instead of leaving assignments and exercise until the last moment, I do them in the 'first' moment. Plus, whenever I am given an assignment to do, I always make a small start on it first, and then return to it later. If you try to do the whole thing at the same time you will most likely not do as good.

Kevin