I'M IN HELL

And I'm old, not that old but old enough. When I was 10-14 I decided I'm in hell and boy was I right. I was right to be so crazy depressed then, given how things have turned out.

My job is extremely boring. My supervisor took away the option of reading, so I drank a little (didn't even affect me), held my breath and inflicted pain on myself (not to anyone there, all below the surface). None of it made the time pass faster a bit.

I have two jobs, by the way. Do you know how to get through the main one? Cut myself beneath the desk? Fabricate an elaborate interior world? Kill myself? I'm going for the SI option now, but I'll have to be very careful.

I have to wake up tomorrow. Why?

Is that job at the bloodbank the first one? Can't you listen to some music or something? Why wouldn't your supervisor let you read. That sound weird. Maybe you can try to look for something new and then you'll have something to look forward to.

DP,

No don't hurt yourself over a job. What an asshole to take away reading. I do word puzzles, Fill it In's my boss was not bother by the word puzzles but they bitched about the book.

I am sorry you are struggling. Really, You need a change, if you hate that job, try landscaping, planting flowers. Try the library, tell them you want to shelve books. I loved shelving, you could hide in the "stacks" and read to your hearts content.

I wish I could make things better. The library is really a good start.
think about it.

peace.
red