Taking one day at a time

Hi everyone! Just thought I would join this forum for an outlet to vent my feelings and talk to others that know the pain of depression.

I have had depression for a few years now. It has gotten worse since I turned 40. life situations have also made it worse at times.
The main thing I am dealing with is when I do feel good I sit and think of all the things I want to do, but I cannot make myself do them. It seems like such a chore, I am lucky to even get my housework done. Am I always going to be this way? Just the thought of it really scares me.

I have a wonderful husband and he is the only thing that I feel keeps me going.

I would never kill myself but I think how much easier it would be to not have to deal with everyday life. I sleep alot just to pass time.

I live in a small town rural area, I work at a sewing factory, Well until today cause I am going to quit, my depression and nerves can't take it anymore, I cry alot because my depression causes great worry and axiety and makes me feel sick all the time, I put myself back on Zoloft 25mg. a few days ago and I am going to increase it in a few more days. I hope it works, but for now I am scared to death that I won't find a full time job in this little town and I have bills. I have to have a job and I have apps put in everywhere, I am starting a part-time job today thank God at the exxon at minimum wage, thats better than nothing but gosh I have so much experience in office type settings, but that's okay I will do what I have to do to survive.

Does anyone else feel like me? The depression also makes me very irritable, and it is very hard for me to get dressed.

Well better go look for another part-time job now wish me luck.

Hi, tinytoes! Welcome to the forum and good luck finding a job!
I'm afraid that I might get too depressed if I get the wrong job, so it was probably a good idea to look for something new.
It sounds like you are very lucky to have your husband. I'm happy for you.
You won't always be this way. Maybe your job was just stressing you out too much and now things will get better. You can talk here any time you feel like it.

I feel very similar to what you feel. When I feel a bit up I think of all the things I want to do but I cannot seem to do them as well (too much doubt and indecisiveness). Doing a lot of the things people in straight life do is more than a chore for me, but a seeming impossibility.

It may seem easier not having to deal with everyday life, but no one knows for sure what lies beyond this life. For all we know it might get harder. It's best to make things as easier in this life, it's far less risky. That is good that you would never kill yourself.

As you already know, talk to your husband when you feel down. Get close to him, hug him, kiss him, and be intimate and it should always bring you up no matter what.

Doing any job that stresses you out is something you should stay away from, good decision on your part. Best of luck to your job hunting.