Sad state of being

Yeah I am 26 and in a very bad condition. I don't know I don't take food so much or even necessary nowadays. I am angry at my mother, brother and friends and everyone around me.. I thought they were the reason for my failure in life.. that made me feel worse ... I blame everything on them like it was all due to them I was failed in life.. I smoked because of bullying, I had trauma because I was ugly, I became a porn addict because no one cared me or was left alone by parents .. so this all blaming and things are chronic and the negative suggestions nearly Drowned and drained my feelings
I am slowly dived into a deep depression for some weeks now.. I am concerned abt that..nothing seems enjoyable . Everything seems worse..

You know also watching social media makes me more depressed.. I spent lot of time on internet that's killing me actually...