Stormy seas

The position I've put myself in is setting up tumultuous times in my near future. My life is beginning to collapse under the weight of all my lies to others. My relationships are strained. No one trusts me or takes me seriously. I'm unable to find a job, and my lack of social contacts makes that situation much more difficult. Honestly, I've accepted my fate and am ready to have my life as it currently is shaken up. This fate is the culmination of everything I am. Maybe it will set in a new era in my life. The state of hitting rock bottom will force me to alter course. I'm kind of excited for my life to be in ruins so I can start anew. Have any of you guys gone through a similar rebirth process? Also, sorry if it's not apparent to you how this relates to depression, these circumstances reinforce my depression

in my opinion, hitting rock bottom creates a deeper rock bottom that's waiting to meet us. it wont necessarily motivate you to get up and recreate your life. if we dont do anything about life, it only gets worse. not the same as it is, but worse. like we're decaying or something.