very lost

Hey guys, This is my second post here, I am a 22 year old guy who grew up in canada up until i was 12, then me and my family moved to Macedonia, a country in the balkans where the system was and still is much more different than canada. So i struggled with fitting in here, got bullied, and in high school i abused weed. Anyways, im still in macedonia and i am struggling a lot, i have been treated in the past for anxiety and depression, but now its only getting worse, this year i was taking a year of off college and i had absolutely nothing to do. I feel worthless and am still living with my parents. I frequently have suicidal thoughts but i am afraid i am gonna act on them, i have problems with my identity, does anyone know any solution? please i really need to reach out

There is nothing better than following the example of Baron Munchausen and pulling himself by the hair out of this swamp. In depression it's seem you forget what it's like to feel normal and comfortable.
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