by Snaga » Mon Oct 22, 2018 3:38 am
What Wally said. I think I'd worry more about not being able to cry, than crying a lot. Back in the day, I used to be able to have really good, epic, give-you-a-headache cries. And it'd let a lot of stuff out. After my momma died, I... was too busy when it happened, to do more than weep a little. Or so I thought. Then some time after, it occurred to me... I seemed unable to have those good cries any more. I stay weepy a lot, but a good, till-your-eyes-ache cry? I've lost the ability. And I feel as if I've lost something important, that something has died inside. I think it's depression that's crept up on me. I can't think of any other reason a person would lose the ability to have a good old fashioned cry. I envy the ability to cry one's eyes out.
Not saying you're in a good place, to be having hard cries frequently. But I think it is a sign of hope, in its own way. I've known people here who were completely flat, no emotion, no feeling, nothing. That is a scary place. I'm grateful that I'm weepy sometimes, as well as still feel some situational happiness.