i cant go through college anymore

hi,
i'm 28. quit a job to do my masters. i quit masters once n for a year i was searching for jobs left right n centre n didnt get any.
got one job but there was horrible management n boss so i quit.
then i applied for college again but i cannot go through it.
its engineering college. i dont want to do engineering but i cant do masters in anything else as i've done graduation in engineering.

classes will start on 2nd august n i dont want to go. i cant stay in hostel anymore. its exhausting. i just want the college to end. i cant cancel admission n go home as i've put a lot of money. plus i'll be idle at home n that'll cause more depression.

right now i'm paranoid about classes on 2nd august. i just dont want to attend the lectures. every other classmate looks relaxed n they get along well with each other.
i dread the time we have to spend together. i make excuses to avoid going to lunch with them.

how do i cut down my paranoia...

How much further do you have to go to complete your masters?

classes will start from tomorrow. we had to register for courses today.

You said you looked for a job for a year but didn't find anything so maybe its best to stick with school. I think maybe you are just panicking, but once classes start and you get into a routine you will feel better.

yeah right till the last deadline to come to this college i was searching for a job.

What is it about class that makes you paranoid? I would get extremely panicky during exams. I had anti anxiety meds I could take but they caused memory problems for me so I rarely used them. It wasn't fun but I did make it through.

i dont want to do engineering. i just dont know what i want. i dabble from writing to engineering n back to writing n now back to engineering masters which i hate.
i applied thinking i'd be a scientist but now i detest looking at the subjects.

When I was in undergrad I could get 100% of my money back up until the first day of classes. I had to do this one time when I was unwell. I don't know if this is the right path to go down for you but if your realllly want out it might be something to look into

i had done this last year. i went to college n left a week before i had to enroll. that was in another country so a lot of money was involved.
for an entire year i searched for jobs but didnt get it. my friend is saying to atleast get the degree. but it's 2 years of struggle. i'm dreaming to get a job so i can leave this college.

i've been searching for a job since 2016 but not getting one. so masters is the only way to improve my education n resume profile. i'm applying for jobs. i have time till next friday till i can get college refund.