Feeling numb

Alright, I’ve had this sorta, this weird feeling I can’t seem to shake off nor will it go on it’s own. I’m kinda feeling...feeling numb. This is probably the second wave of feeling numb in about a year and I’m not sure what’s causing it. For background info, I do have ocd and GAD (generalized anxiety disorder) so I constantly feel on edge whenever I’m in public places a few times even when nothing’s happening. I’m trying to tie the string as to if my anxiety and my highented since of awareness is causing me to feel emotionally numb. What I mean is that when I do something in which I want to feel good from, like, let’s say a favorite activity or a pastime, such as playing video games, I feel nothing even when I know I’m suppose to feel this since of joyness or pleasure. If I win a video game, I just don’t feel that connection like I use to have anymore, like a connection that just happens naturally. Now, I kinda feel like I’m forcing myself to have emotions and it just doesn’t seem right to take that route. And I’m not even sure if that’s healthy at all for my mind. I know it’s kinda weird but I just don’t know how to feel, almost as if my mind just turned the emotions switch off and I’m just a walking nobody. Anyways, I just wanted to get this off my chest. Thank you for reading this

It sounds as if you're thinking that you may be getting depression? Anxiety and depression are often co-morbid, one leading to another.

I agree with Snaga.

In sharing about my past struggle with depression, at one point, I eventually became so severely depressed I didn't want to get out of bed and I did stop feeling anything. I used to say that someone could give me $1000 and it wouldn't get me to smile. And yes, I had some anxiety as well.