will someone kick my mood up the arse

when i feel this depressed and lonely a lot of things that used to make me feel happy start to fill me with dread. I suppose thats obvious with depression, but I still can't fathom it, where does it go, how can you get it back?

when I’m relatively happy; going to the gym, walking or swimming, is something that I can actually want to do. I feel happy being there. But now I’m depressed I think about it and I think about the dingy room, the bad music, the sweaty judgemental people, the chorine in the water, the mirrors everywhere, the bright lights in the changing room, and I just can’t bring myself to do it. Even like eating a salad or fruit, who the frig wants to eat a fresh food when they are depressed?

I also know that doing these things will eventually make me feel better, but I just can’t seem to do it.
Where do get that ‘get up and go’ from?

I suppose its just mind over matter, but I just *can't*. I sometimes wish I could pay someone to motivate me. I just want someone to come round, tell me to get my kit on, give me smack on the arse and push me out the door.

vincent111 wrote:when i feel this depressed and lonely a lot of things that used to make me feel happy start to fill me with dread. I suppose thats obvious with depression, but I still can't fathom it, where does it go, how can you get it back?

when I’m relatively happy; going to the gym, walking or swimming, is something that I can actually want to do. I feel happy being there. But now I’m depressed I think about it and I think about the dingy room, the bad music, the sweaty judgemental people, the chorine in the water, the mirrors everywhere, the bright lights in the changing room, and I just can’t bring myself to do it. Even like eating a salad or fruit, who the frig wants to eat a fresh food when they are depressed?

I also know that doing these things will eventually make me feel better, but I just can’t seem to do it.
Where do get that ‘get up and go’ from?

I suppose its just mind over matter, but I just *can't*. I sometimes wish I could pay someone to motivate me. I just want someone to come round, tell me to get my kit on, give me smack on the arse and push me out the door.

Yeah. I don't know where you get it from but maybe start with figuring out if anything caused your depression. Lack of meaning in life? Stuff like that?

I found one thing can sometimes help me - if I go and do the thing while ignoring any positive aspect or possible positive feeling that could arise from it. Then there is no emotional conflict and I'm able to do the thing.

So like, you'd be able to eat the salad/fruit that way too