Giving up on school.

I believe this is the right place to post this, since it might be depression, but let me know if it's isn't and I'll try to fix it.

Today I think I finally snapped. I'm a senior in high school and I can't be bothered to do anything. I just looked at the stuff I had to do in class today and thought "no". I felt nothing but good not doing work, and honestly I just want to leave this god forsaken school and get my degree online.

The apathy about school has been coming on since the end of the first quarter, and this is the worse it's ever been. I've never just flat out refused to do schoolwork. My mom thinks saying "well, you still have to" will work but it really doesn't. Because I don't have to and there's really nothing she can do or take away to make me do it. I feel completely and utterly immovable and invincible.

I know I have to get my diploma, but there has to be something better than this to do that. I'm not going to college because I absolutely hate any form of schooling and I don't care if I get a minimum wage job and live in a small apartment. Nothing can make me feel this way quite like school can.

So if you guys have any advice, tips, or tricks that would be well appreciated. Thank you.

Ok, forget about if you have depression or not for a minute. Do you really think that after working for something for over 11 years and completing 95% of what you need to do that now is a good time to quit? Really? At this point dropping out of school isn't an option. No matter how much you hate it go every day, do the work, and in 7 months you'll have your diploma. Online classes or whatever else will be harder than just staying on the track you are already on so forget about that and just finish! It doesn't matter if you are planning on going to college or not.

Now that we got that out of the way obviously you wouldn't have made it through 11 years of school if you always felt like this so something is going on with you. It might or might not be depression but you don't have to figure this out yourself. I'd tell your Mom that you think that your loss of interest in school may be mental health related and that you want to see a Dr. and when you do see them tell the Dr. whats going on. They will figure it out for you. I realize its a lot easier for me to write this than it will be for you to do, but you have invested a lot of time and effort in school and you owe it to yourself to at least find out why you suddenly feel this way.

Hang in there,
-S

Like I tell my daughter who is a junior, just do your best. Pushing her through that allows her to be ok with herself even if she gets a C. She did her best. I only expect of them to try. And I know it can be easy to just want to quit, but as parents we are here to cheer and support our children to success. The most I want for my child is happiness and self-fulfillment. A's are great, C's are great too, in my book. Just do your best is my advice.

Take care of yourself first. Regardless of what anyone says, school will always be there, even if it becomes harder to pursue as time goes on. And that being said, there are more and more scholarship opportunities now for adults returning to their studies.

I had great grades and was pursuing advanced studies when I left high school at the end of my sophomore year. Everyone told me to just push through, but doing so while taking care of myself without having my GPA deteriorate was impossible. My frustration and what the adults in my life thought of as rebelliousness was a sign that I needed to slow things down and get help for my mood disorder.

No clue where in the world you are based, but in the States you can take your GED to receive an internationally recognised high school diploma. I did so and it allowed me to leave my studies with a decent GPA. A university that's right for you will be understanding of your decision when you explain it, thoughtfully and with the reflection you'll have once you can breathe a bit more.

That being said, try your best to pull through. You really are almost there. Take the winter break to rest and reassess. If you can finish the semester online, even that would be better than taking a full pause. These things do get harder to resolve as time passes.

Best of luck, and you are welcome to PM me any time