Feel better at night or daytime?

Lately ever since my depression and anxiety have gotten worse, at times even severe, I fine solace at night. Starting in the evening, like a few hours before I rest all the way until the early morning hours if I am still awake. I feel so calm at night and the depression and anxiety lift a bit, I feel somewhat normal. Maybe it is because I feel like I survived another day. I chase this nighttime sanity so bad that lately I have been looking forward to the night and trying to prolong it by staying up as late as possible. I have been falling asleep anywhere from 2am to 5am everyday and to avoid the morning and daytime I get up around noon or 1pm.

When I do get up in the morning the first thing I feel is dread and anxiety, if I am feeling depressed I feel cold and even physical pain which makes it feel impossible to get out. I feel like what is the point of getting up if I already know what today is going to bring, loneliness, anxiety, desperation, worrying, ruminating, isolation. But once I am awake I can't stay in bed too long otherwise I will have anxiety attacks due to my thoughts (thanks anxiety for helping me get out of bed lol).

I want to hear from you guys. Do you feel better during the day, at night, or does it not make a difference?

I do seem to function better at night too. Morning is worst if I have nothing to look forward to when I'm to get up, I'll be in this totally "powered down" deeply unmotivated state. I don't feel anything negative but that's just because my brain is good at blocking out such emotions/feelings. I'd take a little bit of your anxiety to give a spark of motivation to get going to get up from bed... When I took Wellbutrin, that did give me a little spark through feeling of such anxiety. Lol but even that effect of Wellbutrin was gone within a month...

I work overnight, so my day and night time schedules are reversed from most people. I wake up at around 9pm-11pm on my evenings. I actually feel a lot better when I wake up compared to when I'm about to go to bed. I feel terrible as my bed time approaches, mainly either because of work or because I contemplate what I all did in my day, and it's never enough. I'm glad to hear that you can find some comfort in your day though. Sending hugs.