depressed....again

I don't know what's wrong with me but I feel down. I am only 22 but I already feel sooooo old. I am taking summer classes and working part time. I don't have the time or money to ever have fun. I live with my boyfriend but it's like I never get to see him at all. He works allll day long sometimes from 10am-10pm and a lot of times when he isn't at work he is taking care of his dad who has lugaric disease. Other than him I don't really have any close friends. I just go to class and work and mind my own business. I just feel like my boyfriend is never really there for me. This morning I asked him why we never go on dates anymore and he said he has no money because of paying rent and I have no money as well. I just wish we could go out and do something, but I guess that just wont happen. I feel bored with life right now. I wish it could be fun again but right now I feel so much pressure to keep my job and make money and make good grades and get into grad school and work and work and work and never any play. And work and work and work and no money is ever left over. I guess I'm just poor, lonely, bored and depressed. I feel like my fun little time is over now and now I'm "grown up" and I can never have fun anymore and that makes me want to put a bullet through my head.

You really sound depressed. I wish I could help, but I am really depressed too. I know I could get out of it if I started getting some excersise. that used to work for mr, but I can't bring myself to do it. I used to a lot, but I have a bad foot and I have had back pain.

How is your physical health? Maybe you could start a good conditioning program. That might help.

Hi, 22 and it sounds like your boyfriend is busting it to make a lifr for you guys....if you want more money, get another job...stop blaming your unhappiness on the one doing all the work. fun is what you make it, i am dirt poor, and work my ass off 14 hrs a day (or more) and can't even pay all the bills...at your age YES, your focus had better be work and school. that is a reality . Unless u want to be back here going "i'm 45 and have a craappy job cuz i gave up on everything when i was 22 and blamed it all on my boyfriend. i got to leave the house today for non work for the first time in 2 months, i had 11 dollars to spend, and had a good time, learn to appreciate what u have, it could be alot less, lay off your boyfriend, god....the guy works 10 hrs a day AND takes care of his dying elderly father and u r crapping on him for it. you shud get off the computer chair, and look around at your apartment, your posessions, and be glad for them. If you are lucky enough to be in grad school, holy crap run with it! u have a huge oppertunity....and u r wasting it. i would sell my soul to have had the priviledge of going to college. please, i think u need to walk in your boyfriends shoes for a day or 2 and get back to us. Don't take this as a scolding sounding post hon, i'm just tryin to get a rise outa you....get u fired up, u know, the coach givin the pep talk b4 the big game......you have alot going for you, more than most....make it really count. Embracing depression, .....just opens the door to more depression. kick it out the door, don't let it in.be good to you.

Ok first of all you have never even been to college so you have no idea. I can't get a second job. You wouldn't know but college is hard work and takes up a lot of time. If I were to get a second job i would end up doing a less than half assed job at all three priorities. My grades are important to me like I said I am trying to get into grad school. I am not crapping on my boyfriend at ALL. He is the only one I have to talk to and its hard when he's just not around because of work. I just wish we had the money to go on ONE date. But it ends up that we are both so tired by the end of the day that I'm practically sleeping by the time he gets home. Also I really dont care what is in my apartment. I'm not really concerned with possessions so much as having a good time. And its not even money that gets in the way most of the time it is time. I would love to just get out and lay in the park with my boyfriend...but since he has work and I have night classes and work that never happens. And I am also the one busting my ass to make a living. It's not my fault you were to lazy to go to college. Anyone can go with financial aid now so don't even try to blame it on money. Everyone has an equal chance even if you don't score high on Sat's. I started at a community college and worked hard to get into a university. I dont have money to go to college that is what loans are for...I dont try to make excuses. Well I have to get to class now so I won't have a crappy job when i grow up!