I think I need to go back on anti depressants

This would be the third time going back on, and I'm 22. I've been managing well for the past about 1.5 to 2 years or so, but the depression just keeps building up and I've recently gotten into an argument with my friends, I was taking it out on them, and I hadn't​ realized how bad it had gotten. It's straining my alright paper thin relationship with my family, and its a fight to get out of bed and go to work. And I have a good job that happens to pay hourly... Its gotten bad enough that I started tearing up when my mother tried to figure out what was wrong.

I got off because of a heavy fear of dependency, especially on drugs, but now I'm thinking a small dependency, if it even develops at all, is only a small price to pay for not being so @#$&ing miserable all the time and not being able to do anything to make it better.

Writing it out like this makes the decision seem rather clear now, but I guess I'm just looking for some advice and insight on the situation.

I've started on antidepressants since 2006 and I've been on them ever since, alongside other medications for bipolar as well. As far as I know, and I'm no doctor, so please ask your doctor; antidepressants are not addictive. I have changed to different ones all the time, trying what might work for me. You need to get assessed by your pdoc and perhaps be put back on them. Let us know how it works out for you.