dont know what to do *may trigger*

need help, im a 48 year old man. for about a month now ive been really depressed. just cant pull myself out of it.nothing makes me feel better, think about killing myself all the time now. the only thing that has stopped me is the knowing the pain it would cause my family. im scared to go seek help dont want to be put in a hospital. i havent eaten in 7 days, what can i do to get this feeling of dread to at least go away somewhat?

Well first of all, I am sorry you are in a suicidal state. I know personally how horrible it feels.

However, you say it has only been a month. If you haven't felt it for years, I would say this state WILL pass. I know how painful it is, but if you were not depressed before this month, this will likely pass. Just hold on.

Don't be afraid to get help for this depression. You might benefit from getting on some anti-depressants. Seek a psychiatrist near by you. They take a couple weeks to kick in, but it may help you.

*mod edit* Horrible I know, it's just a thought for instant gratification. My friend said it makes you really happy.

Don't be ashamed to go to the hospital either, if you think that is a good idea. I went once for two weeks. It's not that bad. You need help from others right now. I wish you the best of luck! <3

ktholvr wrote:need help, im a 48 year old man. for about a month now ive been really depressed. just cant pull myself out of it.nothing makes me feel better, think about killing myself all the time now. the only thing that has stopped me is the knowing the pain it would cause my family. im scared to go seek help dont want to be put in a hospital. i havent eaten in 7 days, what can i do to get this feeling of dread to at least go away somewhat?

Please seek help. You deserve some relief in the form of outside help, by medication and perhaps hospitalization, in necessary. No one, but your closest friends or family need to know if you get hospitalized. Should that be a concern for you. I've been hospitalized 4 times and I'm glad I was because I am alive and well and I'm stable. It's ok to seek help.