I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to give up.

I'm 29 and i'm a guy I feel like i'm getting old. I can't find anyone I want to date I live in the middle of nowhere. I'm trying to get an associates degree so I can move far away into a big city, so maybe I can fix my dating problem. The problem is it's going to take me who knows how long to get my degree and I feel so depressed because life sucks now and it's not going to get better. I don't really have the motivation to do school work anymore because life feels like crap.

I don't have any friends I can hang out with in real life. I'm also a geeky guy so I'm into Marvel comics, anime and cosplay and stuff like that. Trying to find a girl that likes that stuff here is impossible. My psychaiatrist said I should just talk to girls online even if they are far away. What's the point though if they live further than 30 miles away, I can't afford the gas. Nobody ever wants to meet halfway. I also try to message some that live sorta close but I guess since i'm not as successful as they are, they won't talk to me. So that really makes me loose confidence.

Life is just feeling so monotonous and boring it's I wake up I go to school and I play some video games or watch tv and go to sleep and do the same thing over and over again. It's never I get to go on dates or hang out with friends. I haven't had a date in over 5 years. Even then I had to travel pretty far.

Once in a while I go to a convention but that's literally the only thing I look forward to anymore. I just feel like i'm running out of time it's getting harder and harder find someone the older I get the more I look on dating sites. My psychatrist said I have a existential crisis because I want to be like or I want the world to be like animes and games that i'm into.

I quit seeing my psychatrist because exams and school work getting harder. I just don't have the time. I also don't really feel any better after talking to my psychatrist for months. Even if I do get put on pills, I don't see how a pill is going to magically make all my dreams come true. Unless it just makes me high all the time to the point where I just don't care about anything. At this point I really do feel like I want to die. I'm sick of feeling so alone and empty. I want to actually be able to enjoy life and i'm not enjoying it for the most part. So like the topic I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to give up.

The overall feeling I get from this post is... a low dopey, dread filled, hopelessness. You sound depressed, heavy with no light to look forward to, just trudging through the grey reality. And all I can say is I completely empathize. I know all that you are feeling, and sadly it is wide spread and known by so many. How sad ...

Well the reality of reality (lol) is that there are a series of planned things in this 3rd dimensional life. I believe this. It may sound crazy and stupid, but this reality is less loose and more a series of pin pointed things that will unfold. I am a bit psychic ( but I do not trust anyone's psychic abilities completely). However I can sense things from people. So for you, I do see an image of you approaching a light, that is very positive. I don't know what the content of that might be, but it feels strong. It might not be a gf, but It could be anything. It will be great. I don't know when that would happen for you, but my point I guess, is don't lose hope... I hope that you feel better soon, and that you find the new powerful light that you need in your life, for you too feel so much better.