Does the pain stop?

Will the..
trying to force myself to reach out & not sound like fishing for compliments or attention, but without...
blackness is all i feel. always.
therapy. meds. still, this uselessness.
i want to help but how can one help if they lack the..
i only can repress the realities of losing everything for so long.
i watch and listen to loved ones slowly begin to - get worse.

i don't know how to get better when I cannot stop the overwhelmingly sad life-changing events that non-stop bash into me.

tears are just dried up.
perhaps i just think too much.
perhaps i don't think enough.
perhaps, perhaps...
I thought i couldnt get worse years ago.
suprise.

today is not a good day. i dont know when i last laughed, though find it even worse when i catch myself smiling and think "wow im laughing" - need that be a thing that makes me say "how odd"?
flodded with nothingness.

Yes, the pain stops. But it may be a long road.

I offer you a gentle hug and a soft embrace.

thank you. so much.

yet the road has gone on for so long,

hope was lost- when everything else was taken.

there simply does not seem to be any good days any longer.

i find myself a bother to people now.

who wants to constantly try to cheer up a person that finds it odd upon laughing?

no attemts to fish. thanks for the reply. i just dont want to fight any more.

I'm here if you need to talk...

thank you. again.
but im trying to find words in a void.

your kindness draws tears.
preoccupied with my own issues causes the reality that obsessing, causes panic causes-

just a vicious circle.

i feel that i have used all the words, therapy, counseling, outpatient, inpatient, blah blah.

i know things could be worse, but they could not in any way be, i live in the reality of what is to come. and need to stop thinking.

i think the suffering stops. and if we hold on to the past or pain for long time, we may end up as unhappy and indifferent.
like we may end up obsessed with our depression n sad memories.

jaus tail wrote:i think the suffering stops. and if we hold on to the past or pain for long time, we may end up as unhappy and indifferent.
like we may end up obsessed with our depression n sad memories.

I hope that's not true.

Live life day to day. Don't think about your life in terms of years or the future too much. Does the pain stop. Yes it always does. Will it come back, yes but if you live in the moment, you will feel the pain coming in waves. It will come but then it will subside and you will find relief Bask in that relief it is great to experience.