What's wrong with me? Im a pussy

Im 26 years old male. Pretty good looking, as in I can tell girls have been attracted to me...until they meet me. I have every charecteristic a guy could have that would lead someone to belive that Im getting a lot of girls yet I have none and I have no life. Im musically talented, I play over 5 instruments and have produced on computers since I was 12. Ive made music that mimics Skrillex, Dr. Dre and not to be cocky but some of the great composers such as mozart and beethoven (classical). I play guitar and sing, I dress well and keep the typical "high and tight" haircut. Im physically fit and have attractive features yet in my head im a complete wreck. I have zero self-esteem, zero self-worth, zero social skills and zero vitality to do anything but be alone and make music. My problem is that Im at the point to where I want to WANT to talk to people. Like I dont even have the want to talk to people. I drive uber and have plenty of oppertunities to talk to people but I really have no desire, yet Im miserable being alone. I hate hanging out with other guys because their behaviour is so transparent in that everything they do even when girls aren't present is to condition themselves for when they are so they can get laid. And I dont wanna talk to girls because its a battle between my extreme attraction towards them and my iniblity to identify with them. Everyone seems so fake, including me when im around them. Theres no authenticity out there, and when I do happen to encounter it, I assume they have an agenda or their just nuts for being so uninhibited around someone they dont know.

Its just anytime a girl is interested I think to myself "trust me, ill just bore you. Im not smoothe, Im not charesmatic and I cant "whoo" you the way more socially smooth guys can. I can play guitar and melt your heart, I can cook for you and tell you that I think your pretty but in the end your biology is going to reject me for a more masculine, "dominant" and in general more "normal" guy. I've felt myself regress back to how I felt in highschool where I just keep thinking to myself "I have nothing to say at the moment", "I have nothing to say to this person", "I just want to leave".

I just have nothing to say to anyone, nothing comes to mind. I just play along. "o your into xxxxx? Thats cool" O you think that? WOW..."Ya i agree, thats cool....bye"

My problem is that Im at the point to where I want to WANT to talk to people. Like I dont even have the want to talk to people. I drive uber and have plenty of oppertunities to talk to people but I really have no desire, yet Im miserable being alone.

Have you ever tried figuring out what prevents you from wanting to interact with people?

And I dont wanna talk to girls because its a battle between my extreme attraction towards them and my iniblity to identify with them.

What renders you unable to identify with them?

Theres no authenticity out there, and when I do happen to encounter it, I assume they have an agenda or their just nuts for being so uninhibited around someone they dont know.

So would it be fair to presume you've been conditionned in childhood to inhibit your self around people you don't know?
Might explain the inhibitions you experience when it comes to interacting with people you'd deeply, underneath your socio-cultural programming, want to engage with.

Its just anytime a girl is interested I think to myself "trust me, ill just bore you. Im not smoothe, Im not charesmatic and I cant "whoo" you the way more socially smooth guys can

So because you believe your self to be incapable to get a female to develop any interest in you, you then have gone on to not bother at all to even try getting a girl interested in you, cause you expect your self to be doomed from the start?

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Yet once females might get to know you, they might possibly perceive you totally differently from the way you perceive your self. (i.e. perceiving you to be charismatic even though you can't see that your self; genuinely arousing their interest even though you think you're boring to hang out with, ...)

I can play guitar and melt your heart, I can cook for you and tell you that I think your pretty but in the end your biology is going to reject me for a more masculine, "dominant" and in general more "normal" guy.

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I've felt myself regress back to how I felt in highschool where I just keep thinking to myself "I have nothing to say at the moment", "I have nothing to say to this person", "I just want to leave".

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I just have nothing to say to anyone, nothing comes to mind. I just play along.

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You talk a lot in absolutes like "zero" and "never" and such. I've read and heard that doing so can lead to mental illness. Maybe it would help you to start re-phrasing those statements by using "low self esteem instead of no self esteem"
At any rate I hope things get better for you. It might be a slow process but it will probably happen.