Everybody hates me; I've hit the bottom

I'm so depressed about my pyshical and mental health I'm out of energy and all I do is cry and cry. I'm 17 years old and I have no friends. My best friend left me because of my possible BPD. I have nobody. My parents are tired of me and I'm so desperate I'm so desperate to hallucinate a friend I'm so desperate for somebody to love me and I want to call a hotline but they don't help and end up calling the police on you. I want to run away but I have no where to go. Everything is so bad right now and I just want to turn to dust and disappear out of thin air. I don't know what to do anymore .

It sounds like you are very emotional at this moment. It's hard to really think things through when you are in this state. I would recommend to give yourself time and sleep on it, type of thinking, and see how you feel later. Lots of times we just need someone to listen to us and be there for us or to help us too. I hope that you writing this out helped. Is there anyone you can talk to, in real life that you feel comfortable with?

Sometimes we are so depressed that we feel like no one wants to talk to us. But what sometimes tends to happen is we get so tired of ppl asking us "how are you?", that we start being short with them, or it seems like we have an attitude. It's only because we don't truly know how to share our feelings. Even if we say we don't want anyone to truly know how we feel, a lot of times that isn't so. We just wish to say it in a way that we hope they will understand.
If your friend is truly a good friend, just invite her over one day, and apologize for the way you're acting (I'm not saying to apologize because you're done something wrong. But sometimes ppl will be willing to talk to you more if they feel you realize you're been putting them off or something). IDK, but seriously tell her that you're going through so much right now, and you really don't know how to handle it all. Tell her that you wish there was just someone there who didn't judge you, and helped you through this difficult time.
But at the same time, you should research therapists, psychologists and/or psychiatrists in your area. Because you may need to talk to a professional who will give you the proper care taht you need. We have all been there and hit rock bottom. Sometimes we may need some anti-depressants or just talk therapy to help us out of the rut we're in. Don't be so hard on yourself.
Calling a hotline will be great help. You should really call them. They won't call the police if you're honest with them. I mean, completely honest. Just say you're feeling lonely and depressed and wish you weren't feeling like that anymore. They should help guide you in the right direction.

Also, every parent who has a teenager, will try and give them some space. Usually. So this might be what's going on with the feeling you get that your parents are pushing you away. You don't have to tell them EVERYTHING that's bothering you, but just tell them that you're feeling really crappy now, and maybe you'd wish them to check in on you once a day or something. And make sure to end both talks (with friend + parent) with a hug or something. It will help you both feel much better going forward.

Get out of the house and exercise. Put on comfy shoes and go for a walk. Walk a long way from your house so you will have a long walk to get back home. Walk further than you ever have before. This will clear your mind and help you get your mind on other things besides yourself. Look around as you walk. Say hi to anyone you meet. Stop and pet their dog or tell them how cute their baby is. This is not a long term solution, but it will help you through tough days and it does not cost a dime.

I'm sorry you are feeling so #######5 right now Have you considered getting a therapist?https://therapists.psychologytoday.com/rms/ this link, you can find the right one for you, that is near by.

You sound like you are going through a lot, and all these problems are pulling you in all directions and it feels chaotic. So just take a deep breathe right now. Life will improve for you. This state is temporary. Yes it may last a long time or a short time. Your parents love you, don't worry. And have you tried looking for something on a dating app or website. These things are worth a try. I hope you feel better soon, and wish you the best of luck. <3