DONT GIVE A ###$

I dont give a ###$ what happens to me anymore...my body is no longer mine...people cant tell me they want me to stop cutting because they dont like seeing me hurting but how the ###$ do you think I feel before I cut?! Im not happy like you ###$ think...mom, when you read this, I hope you relize that Im in control of my own god damn body and I dont have to stop for anyoine....I ###$ hate me and thats the same with eating...you cant make me eat cuz its my body...control your own ###$ body...NOT MINE!!!

Healing Angel,

Whoa!! I hear all the anger and pain!!!
Your post screams pain, defiance, boundryless.

You have an eating disorder? That often goes along with cutting.

Not everyone, but some.

If your mom reads this, I hope she helps you by getting you help, not by trying to stuff you with food.

This is a control issue. If you show your mom you can take of yourself, maybe she will lighten up bit.

Until then, I assume you are young and living with your parents,please tell me if the situation is otherwise.

You can set boundries and limitations with your mom if she reads this and maybe start over. Depression sucks and it has a horrible way of creeping in to all of you thoughts. I hope you are getting help with the depression, and what the trauma was to set you on this path...

peace,
red

my mom needs to ###$ DIE!! I dont need ###$ help! I dont have a eating disorder! I just choose not to eat! Im tired of people contorling me and I just want everybody to LEAVE ME THE ###$ ALONE

Healing Angel wrote:my mom needs to ###$ DIE!! I dont need ###$ help! I dont have a eating disorder! I just choose not to eat! Im tired of people contorling me and I just want everybody to LEAVE ME THE ###$ ALONE

Healing Angel,

I hear how pissed off you are. I hear that you dont want anyone to control you or your eating. The best way to get the people off your back, is to show them you can take care of yourself in a healthy way. If you show maturity, and love for yourself I promise they will leave you alone.

peace.
red

but I DONT love myself! Im not gonna act just to make people leave me alone...
I used to act that I loved myself and that I was alll happy but then I became a stranger to my god damn self...
im tired of trying to please other people and I refuse to do it again!

Healing Angel wrote:but I DONT love myself! Im not gonna act just to make people leave me alone...
I used to act that I loved myself and that I was alll happy but then I became a stranger to my god damn self...
im tired of trying to please other people and I refuse to do it again!

Loving yourself is the base for being happy. As we mature we do change and feel different. If you are tired of pleasing people and you are going to please just yourself, then positive or negative you are doing for yourself because you care about you.

red

You know what I don't know if this person is still reading this site.

But you must want some ###$ help if you came here the first place and don't say you don't ###$ care because you cared enough to post what you feel.

So if you ###$ want to chat, I will gladly chat with you because I feel the same way. Maybe we can help each other.

butterflykisses8 wrote:You know what I don't know if this person is still reading this site.

But you must want some ###$ help if you came here the first place and don't say you don't ###$ care because you cared enough to post what you feel.

So if you ###$ want to chat, I will gladly chat with you because I feel the same way. Maybe we can help each other.

bk8,

Healing Angel is still a member of this site. All members at this site are supported as much as possible, this post is several days old, and if you are looking for someone to talk too I would be happy to because I too know what is to feel this way. Feel free to post or pm anytime.

peace.
red