Help!

I'm sorry if I'm posting this in the wrong place as I'm new to this forum; I'm just reaching out for help as I feel I am not taken seriously and no one understands the severity of my illnesses.
A quick overview: I'm currently suffering from OCD, depression and anxiety. I have been in therapy for four years and am about to begin my third medication; I was offered an antipsychotic, a tricyclic or a third type of SSRI, I'm choosing the SSRI because of the lessened side effects, I have turned down the anti psych due to the risk of developing tardive dyskinesia. I'm 16 and still in school, studying for my higher (a levels) exams.
I would really like some advice as I feel as though my psychologist, psychiatrist etc are not understanding the severity of how I am feeling. I was just wondering, If I could list all of my symptoms and maybe you give me a few ideas as to what I could be struggling e done a lot of research as I am determined to help myself, and I have come across a few things I may be dealing with such as BDD, OCPD and others.
It would really help as I feel as though everyone around me is not recognising my depression and how much I really need support at the moment. I am struggling to bring myself out of bed in the morning and go to school. I am so exhausted and cannot manage all the things inside of my head whilst trying to focus in school, but I am too scared to say anything.
My symptoms are:

-very down/sad and irritable consistently throughout the day, every day
-avoiding and losing interest in things I used to love
-poor sleep(I wake up very early every morning and struggle to get to sleep at night)
-excruciatingly exhausted- CONSTANTLY!!
-very difficult to make decisions, become very distressed when asked to make a decision
-headaches
-cramps
-diarrhoea
-extreme thirst and urge to go to the toilet
-constantly compare my looks to other people's
-spend a long time in front of a mirror, constant checking throughout the day, very unnecessary and -abnormal amounts and lengths of time
-spend a long time doing makeup, can never find clothes I think suit etc
-become distressed by a particular areas of my body, ranging over time
-urge to avoid parties etc due to appearance
-Always looking for new diet and exercise 'miracle' routines
-Extreme attention to detail
-Spend hours perfecting things
-Cause myself extreme distress when something isn't perfect
-Unrelenting high standards
-suicidal identation/ suciidal thoughts
-Feeling as though I do not exist, very hard to explain... I feel as though nothing is real
-Overwhelming sense of nothingness
-Feel as though I have no purpose in life
-Extreme, disabling guilt
-Feel like everyone hates me
-Constant awful thought, I get an overwhelming feeling that swallows me up: to do with how suddnely when we die everything we have ever done etc is forgotten and it disappears, it scares me ALOT and I find it difficult to come to terms with, I get confused as to what this world really is, why we are here, what is life? What is the point? The aim?
-Overthinking and over analysing

There is more but these are the main ones! If someone could reccomend what help I need and what I may be struggling with id appreciate it so much.

Hello Al12338261938. I'm very sorry you're struggling with all these issues at this time in your life, I wish I could wave a magic wand and change that for you. In terms of what you may need or what you could be struggling with, I'd go along with your current diagnosis of OCD, depression and anxiety. It covers everything you mentioned really. You sound like you have your head screwed on right [I wish I did at your age] so see how your new meds go and try to remain positive and focused. I believe you'll get through this in one piece.

What is your diet like? May be you are missing a few essential nutrients.

Sorry to hear about your problems.
I would keep talking to my psychiatrist about adding or changing medications until you find some improvement. Some medications will work well for some people but not others and vice-versa. You may also want to ask your doctor about ECT's for depression. Studies show they work about twice as often as anti-depressants.
It may be good to see some other specialists too in case some of your problems are in part due to non-mental illness issues. Anti-depressants worked wonders for me after finding the right conbo but turns out my lack of appetite was due to a thyroid issue.

cookiedo wrote:What is your diet like? May be you are missing a few essential nutrients.

Seriously?

Oliveira wrote:

cookiedo wrote:What is your diet like? May be you are missing a few essential nutrients.

Seriously?

oh, come on; skim through the list of symptoms. See nothing related to apetite, what do you think?

-- Fri Oct 28, 2016 3:17 pm --

cookiedo wrote:

Oliveira wrote:

cookiedo wrote:What is your diet like? May be you are missing a few essential nutrients.

Seriously?

oh, come on; skim through the list of symptoms. See nothing related to apetite, what do you think?

-Always looking for new diet and exercise 'miracle' routines

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but still thinking that was not an entirely misplaced suggestion.

I also thoughts it might be a diet thing the moment I read these symptoms in the original post:

"-headaches
-cramps
-diarrhoea
-extreme thirst and urge to go to the toilet"

Especially the last one! So I think the reply suggesting looking at the diet is reasonable. And I don't appreciate and think it is bad practice for one member replying to negatively criticize another member's reply.

atina