Unsure what to do.

I use to be all smiles. I use to care.

Now it's like I'm struggling to get out of bed. I'm not motivated for anything. I have to stay busy at work so no one will ask questions. I always use the excuse I'm tired. On top of that, I have started self harming again which I was clean for nearly a year. I can't seem to get a hold of this. I'm drowning and it seems like no one even notices. No one even cares. I mean I don't know Howe to just come out and ask for help but the signs are there and it's like no one notices.

How do you even suppose to be able to carry on with this dark clouds o us that it's increasing and no one can see? How do you scream for help when no one sees you drowning?

Sorry if this post is confusing or in the wrong section. I just ..... I just not sure what to do anymore. I've given up.

Hi,

I remember feeling like this. I also thought I couldn't be helped, that it was all over, that I was just faking it, that other people feel the same way but go on successfully, etc. It wasn't true. I went to a doctor, finally, first antidepressant only gave me terrible side effects but second worked. I got my life back.

People generally don't notice, if you don't tell them. I used to always smile at everyone, I'm great at faking a big smile. When I announced at work I was leaving because of burnout and depression everybody said "but you're always so happy!!!". No. I wasn't happy. I looked happy. There's a difference.

Oliveira

I've asked for help and told people I need help but they keep shrugging me off and say I'm overdoing it. I need to just relax. How does one relax when you are the person that you are running from.

LeviClyde wrote:How does one relax when you are the person that you are running from.

Then maybe run to a friend and ask him to help you. When i had a nervous breakdown, i became my own worst enemy. now when i look back i realize my friends were more concerned about me, than i was. had i followed their advice i wouldn't have fallen further.

at times its better to trust a friend than trust ourselves.