Can't stop thinking about death

This thought keeps looping in my head non stop. What is the point of trying to live a happy life if we all die anyway. I know it's a stupid thought to have because death comes to everyone eventually but everytime I try to do something, or care about other people or anything, the thought will spring up in my mind.

A baby is born? Doesn't matter, it will one day die. Best friend getting married? Who cares, they will both die one day. Having fun enjoying a hobby? What's the point? I'm just going to die. Hear about an horrible murder on the news? Well that person was going to die anyway.

I'm agnostic so I don't know what will happen to us when we die. The thought that atheist could potentially be right though terrifies me. It just makes everything so unimportant. Not worth it. We all die one day so why exist? We are cursed with the knowledge of death.

These thoughts lead to me to nihilistic thinking and I don't know how to see life as meaningful anymore. I'm afraid of not caring about humanity due to the thought that they will die. If everyone thought like me, then humanity would die out. But I often wonder if I am seeing the truth of life and everyone else is just pretending they are immortal.

I don't know how I can get past this. I am losing hope.

Hi

I've had this type of thinking, for me it eventually goes away and I start to see value in things even though there not permanent.

i have the opposite problem. i think the only point in living is to feel happy and have fun. and have a lot of positive emotions and intense emotions and meaningful close relationships with people. until you die. enjoy life until you die and have fun. that would be enough for me. but i find life boring, dull ,nothing ever happens, i do not feel anything ,nothing is interesting. so what is the point in living in this thing where only bad things happen and pain and nothing feels good and you can not escape or do anything you like. nothing good will ever happen and everything is boring

for me even if i lived fulfilling 10 days and then die.that would be enough. but nothing is fulfilling and i think nothing will ever be.
more close to you thinking, when i have anything i like, i am terrified i am going to loose it. so i am starting the more similar thinking :what is the point to have it, if then i will loose it and be in pain. and freak out . but if i think calmly i prefer to have it even for a little with pain after ,than never having it at all. the problem is i never have it at all and i do not want to live

sorry i know i am not much help. it's is just strange that it seems i think the opposite

I used to have what some of my friends were jealous of:
I didn't have to work
I could stay at home with my kids
I could still go shopping and have home parties
I had a cleaning lady
we had a beautiful and brand new house
and we drove around in two brand new vehicles.

But underneath it all, I was not happy and I wanted to die and everyday was hard for me because I was not happy. Having 3 beautiful girls didn't fix this. I was depressed and only medication helped me feel better, that and I really needed therapy by this time. I got both of those and eventually I came around. I am happy and I can enjoy this feeling of happiness. I think for you, it's just the depression talking. Do you see a doctor, a psychiatrist preferably, and also a therapist? Both of them work together to help you get back to feeling well. It took me a really long time to have the right medication regimen for me to be completely well, but it happened, I could feel again, the depression went away.

This is how I feel too, it's existential depression in its purest form.

This article here helped a bit. It's meant to put a humorous spin on the whole thing, but whilst also keeping it serious. It might be a bit triggering for some though.
http://www.cracked.com/article_15658_th ... guide.html

Mods please don't edit my post, this isn't a pisstake, it's an actual article that may help.