Just... aaah

I really have to write down my thoughts.
They hurt my brain.

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I hate people.
No, I don't hate them. I just want them to die and leave me alone.
I hate myself.
Everything is my fault. I'm a stupid, lazy, ungrateful bitch.
I'm the worst person in the world. I don't deserve having all the things I have.
I'm willing to give it all to someone else.

SO MUCH PAIN

I feel.. so heavy. I can't stop eating.
I always say to myself that I'll stop eating soon
Become (too) thin again
Light as a feather
One with the air
...But I never do that

I can't go to school
They don't understand..
I feel so horrible. All the people, all the small talks. God.

It's my entire fault.
Everything is inside me, and I CHOOSE to do NOTHING

I hate youuuuuuuuuuuu
I wish killing myself was an option

Hey,

Thank you for releasing your thoughts; There are few better places than here to do such a thing. If you wish to express more then please do because there will always be someone here to read it and comment. We will always be supportive to you no matter what happens.


Why do you think all of this is your fault? - because you do nothing about it? It isn't your fault; Something is preventing you from acting on all that has happened. It is not a matter of simply choosing to be better. If it were that easy then I would not be b
bulimic and depressed.


When you speak of 'you' and 'them', who are you referring to?


Take care Superstar,
Kevin

Thanks, I appreciate your reply.

writing helps, i agree

Are you okay now? ... ...or maybe even a little better perhaps?


Kevin.