please help i'm 16 and confused

Ive had some pretty traumatic things happen in my life, dad died when i was a baby mom has head injury, lived with grandma and then found her unconsious and now live with my uncle. At times i feel so so sad. But other times i feel so happy. Before i go to bed or when im jsut alone everything that has ever happened to me rushes through my head and it can be so overwhelming. Why does this happen? Is this anxiety? I wish i could just explain it better. For the majority im happy.. its jsut those certain moments i feel so unhappy. I sometimes cut when it gets too.. i dont know i wish i could desrbe it better. My mom is in a nursing home right now for confusion so thats been adding to it. I feel happy but deep down i feel so.. bothered and unhappy. My life right now for the most part is great.. i have friends and family that love me its just.. one thing after another i guess. I'm thinking of getting counseling but i dont have the money. I'd just like to start off knowing what this is:-/

chrissy8987 wrote:Ive had some pretty traumatic things happen in my life, dad died when i was a baby mom has head injury, lived with grandma and then found her unconsious and now live with my uncle. At times i feel so so sad. But other times i feel so happy. Before i go to bed or when im jsut alone everything that has ever happened to me rushes through my head and it can be so overwhelming. Why does this happen? Is this anxiety? I wish i could just explain it better. For the majority im happy.. its jsut those certain moments i feel so unhappy. I sometimes cut when it gets too.. i dont know i wish i could desrbe it better. My mom is in a nursing home right now for confusion so thats been adding to it. I feel happy but deep down i feel so.. bothered and unhappy. My life right now for the most part is great.. i have friends and family that love me its just.. one thing after another i guess. I'm thinking of getting counseling but i dont have the money. I'd just like to start off knowing what this is:-/

Hi chrissy,
Sounds like you have had some trauma and stress with your mom.
Always remember you have great support from a family that loves you. You sound happy.

But cutting isn't happy is it? Nope.

You need to figure out what triggers you to cut. You can look in the phonebook, or call you local health center. You wont have to give you name.

oh, and what ever you do dont cut, use and ice cube but dont cut.
I know it is hard to resist but you can do it!!

Nice to meet you,
red

Thanks for sharing. It would be great if you could find someone to talk this over with. You may never have really grieved your loss. Counseling would be great. Sometimes there is a sliding scale so you may not have to pay much. Sometimes there are support groups around that cost next to nothing. Sometimes these groups are listed in the local newspaper.
Good Luck,
Jim S