Sadness feels so good.....Death sounds even better

I've dealt with so much the last few years. I came out to my parents. They don't accept homosexuality. I had to endure an eating disorder. I don't have a job right now. I quit school. I am drinking more. I hate this life I am living. It's the same ######6 people, the same ######6 $#%^, over and over and over and over again. This is not happiness. This is not fun. I'm tired. I wish I had a rope right now.

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-GeminiCub

GC,

wow, sounds like you are really down.
I dont know if you have any support right now,
sounds like you deserve some!!!

Dear Gemini,

I'm sorry to hear that your daily dealings are the same over and over again. Living in a world that is unacceptable and feeling that you have no other alternatives than wishing you had a rope. I have felt similar feelings in regards to wanting to end the suffering but have found hope for my life and a bright light in my darkest hour. I wish I could offer some reasoning to make the sadness go away and help you realize that there is more to life than what you are going through right now. Even talking about the issuses with someone who is accepting and open might provide some help. Have you sought out professional help? It might be something to look into.

Kat