addicted to meds, help!

i'm abusing Zoloft. i'm only supposed to take 50mg and it works for awhile, i'm up and excitable for a few hours. but it quickly turns into confusion and anxiety and then depression again. i end up taking more and more. i became hypomanic in zoloft last time i was taking it (only restarted recently) and even though i know it's not reality and probably ultimately detrimental, it's still all i want. to be high.

i have no idea what to do. if i told the docs (i don't even have a regular shrink, i hate them) they'd take me off it but then i'd be back at the bottom of that black hole that i can't crawl out of without meds. i spend half my time on zoloft confused and agitated but it's still worth it for those few hours a day... which is all i can really hope for.

emptyvessel,

I would never just choose a antidepress. to start taking, without a doctor putting me on them, and then I would rather my psych do it that my PCP that is a D.O. .


JMHO, but I dont think people realise just how serious anti-depressants are. They change you brain chemistry. Some if you look them up in books, Psych's have said they dont even know how or why some anti depressant works.

How did you come to use-abuse zoloft is you dont have a doctor??

Have you thought about doing a detox - step program for recovery and/or addiction?

I hope you are feeling better soon,