Depression and Anxiety Help / Advice?

I know that there are tests, quizzes, and people out there to answer this for me, but I don't feel comfortable with any answers given by those.
So basically, to start with, I'll explain the depression side of things. If you asked me what my hobbies are, I would not answer. I sit and do absolutely nothing all day. The wall is my favorite thing to look at. I have no interests, no hobbies, nothing. I have not a single friend, and I don't care. None of this bothers me. In fact, since I am so slow and tired all the time, I can just sit there and not feel a thing. This isn't the bad part (aside from all the negative physical body side effects of sitting and doing nothing, such as my back muscles are frozen in place and my legs are wobbly when I stand up) but the bad part is the anxiety. I have extremely severe occasional anxiety. maybe not occasional, but often I get a sense of dread of everything. My thoughts are blocks, each with a different amount of force. From a leaf to a bullet. I feel nothing through the whole thing, and I just want to do nothing, exist as nothing. There is nothing for me and I am doing nothing, and I don't understand these feelings and thoughts.

Aside from this, I also doubt myself a lot. I personally believe I am inferior to every human on the planet, in a literal sense. You may find that awfully odd, but after a while of thinking that it starts to seem real. I often have to force myself to think that I am capable of doing anything.

Other times I have a paranoid fear that alien races are after me for my supposed superior intellect and skills, and I always fear this, dread it. I feel like one day I will be captured by some external force for my "gifts". Yeah, pretty narcissistic, but I'm NOT thinking this by myself, these thoughts randomly pop into my head and for some reason I believe them.

Sorry about this horrible post. I just need help, quickly. Of course, I have all the time in the world (until I go to college and get kicked out for not working) so yea, basically I might as well lie around and do nothing for the rest of time.

Hello, and welcome to the forums.

I don't think anybody here can help you, unfortunately. Your situation requires professional help. I do not know whether it's possible for you to get psychiatric help easily where you live. In my country you need a referral from family doctor, and full confidence is kept as long as you are over the age of 16.

The good news is that most probably all of your problems can be resolved. Whether by therapy, medication or both, I do not know -- I am not a professional. But it can, and it does get better. From, what you describe I do not think (again, not a pro!) that depression is the right description of what you are going through, but again, only a psychiatrist can assess you properly.

Big hugs and I hope you get some 3D help as soon as possible.

Thanks for replying. I am seeing someone tonight and I will describe this. At that moment I just needed some support for this because I'm lost for what to do and I don't feel comfortable enough talking about it up close so online was my choice but I will see if I can get help for this.

Hi,

for a lot of us, especially those with anxiety, talking about this is very difficult. A suggestion: print out your first post and hand it over to the doctor you're seeing. This way you can get a lot of talking out of the way, and make sure you don't forget something important.

Hugs, and I hope it goes well!

Thanks for replying, and I will try that out. In the meantime I have seen a professional, 2 in fact, in the past week and they both seem to help as they explain some of the things I've experienced and methods of repair. Hopefully my post makes sense to them, but thank you for replying again.