Thinking about death...

I am unsure of whether this is a trait of being depressed or being an emo.

I could explain myself, looking back on the past I had always thought about death, and throughout every day I would always focus on death, how much time I had left, feeling as if my inevitable death was coming closer, I would live life up because of this, instead of cutting myself I would actually do more stuff than most people, I started bodybuilding etc.

But deep underneath I would kind of think of my death, you know like that phrase "you only live once." it encourages you to live it up but at the same time underneath you kind of feel depressed despite living it up, those people that would live it up deep underneath would be low, deep down they were in pain. What strike me about this Zyzz quote is that deep down he's depressed, but he shows on the outer surface that he's happy.

Is this just a part of being an emo at a teenage or is it that you have depression?

Here's a quote from Zyzz: "Everybody, one day will die, and be forgetton. Act and behave in a way that will make life interesting and fun, ###$ a mundane predictable life working monday to friday with something you derive no pleasure from; just living life out till you grow old and wither away. Find a passion, form relationships, dont be afraid to get out there and ###$ what everyone else thinks, trust me its alot more fun that way. Dont ever pay people out or put people down. Instead just put yourself up and let the haters do their thing. Id rather be a person thats hated on, than a person that does the hating. A wise man one said.. Haters gonna hate!"

I think about death all the time almost, but I'm 51 and don't take care of myself, I'll be lucky to have two more decades. Until 30 or 40 though, I gave little thought to the fact I'm gonna die sooner or later. I'd say excessive thoughts about it when one is young is rather depressing... $#%^, it's depressing now.