I realized.
My way of tasting life is corrupted.
I am handicapped.It's just invisible.I look like a perfectly normal human being...but the one thing that's wrong is literally how I taste life...that's the problem, it's been battered, thats what this disease does.It takes your taste of life and turns it to $#%^.
everything, every experience, every second of my existence is but an empty copy of what life really is.
I finally how understand how beautiful life is, when I understand that everything I lived is fake.
It's a Aha moment.So if life is not absolute $#%^ like it has been for me.Then it must be something beautiful.I don't know..I will never get to taste life like normal people.
Cancer?torture?acid thrown in your face?
It's nothing....nothing can compare to being robbed every single second of your life, all the years, all the love, all the friendships, everything is robbed and I don't feel nothing.
Depression is the most horrible disease on this planet.The most horrible fate.
A torture so unimaginable.No one would be able to dream of coming with such an evil plan to punish their worst enemy.
every single second of my life destroyed..to be left a shell that tastes like dirt.not only am I failure,I knew that I was this whole time.
now I finally realize.I am a ######6 martyr.A victim of life, I won the dark lottery.
all my intelligence, my kindness, my heart, my love.....it's all wasted, these past 8 years NEVER USED OR APPLIED TO MY REAL LIFE.
I DIDNT SHOW LOVE TO PEOPLE. I DIDNT USE MY INTELLIGENCE FOR SOMETHING GOOD. its all wasted because I COULDNT!!!
I WASNT LAZY!!!
I DIDNT NOT TRY HARD ENOUGH!!
I LITERALLY ######6 CANT BE A NORMAL HUMAN BEING!!THATS MY DISEASE
The beautiful person that I could have been,I could have been so good to this world.....no, nothing, just a massive waste of a human life.I am not a failure,I'm worse,I'm literally pain and despair.That's all I am.Ive been pretending my whole life to be fine, to put up.Now I realize just how #######5 my life is, how much I lied to myself.
I always knew I meant for something great.for something special.
well this is really special,I out of millions of human being gets to witness what's it like to have your life hollowed out and replaced by an imposter.All the years of my life.
I guess I take up the bad fate so another human being doesnt have to?
I've witnessed and I've judged.This sort of life trash.only good to be ended early.
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