Withdrawal symptoms/prozac question

Hi, i'm new here.. i've had diagnosed depression since I was 12, now 18.
I've been on lexapro and ciprimil which didnt work.

Last year after 3 months hospitalisation I was put on prozac 20 for a while, quickly increased to 40..

I've been technically on 40 ever since,, but I have my own personal issues with being medicated and constantly fiddled with the dose, sometimes skipping it, sometimes overdosing with about 20 odd tablets.
I got fed up recently and decided to come off them.
My doctors said no so im doing it secretly so I cant ask them for advice, hence me being here.

I stopped taking them altogether over xmas, and have only had about 3 since then, when it was unavoidable.
The withdrawals are really horrible, and I want to knw how long they will last as im going insane..

The worst one I guess is the really vivid disturbing dreams, causing me to lose loads of sleep and oversleep in the mornings, missing my lectures. The dreams are really really vivid and upsetting and at one point I was avoiding going to bed for days at a time just to avoid them.

When can I expect normal sleeping patterns again?

If it helps answer I was taking an everage of 80mg a day before I went cold turkey.. I know it wasnt ideal but I dont want to go into too much detail but it was really wearing me down for lots of reasons.

Thanks..

Also.. if say you have no tablets for a few weeks, and then take just 1, does that wreck the whole withdrawal and it would be like starting again or is it not enough to make an impact?

Most medications to treat depression are anti depressants that keep a certain blood level chemistry, they have to be taken as prescibed, No more and No less. That right there, could really make your brain rattle. JMHO

I have been on many different kinds, some would work for a short while, and then I was feel depressed again. When that would happen I would choose to quit them without doctors orders and yes I did not feel good.

Prozac maynot be the right med for you, it made me full of anxiety myself. I did not like it. I refused to take it so my dr did try me on others, which worked much better.

Good Luck , I hope you feel better.