Received some bad news, now I've slipped back into depressio

A few days ago I found out my uncle has liver cancer. Upon hearing the news it was as if my depression instantly came back. I've started to thinking about the pointlessness of life again and death. It's like he has already died. I just can't see any point in living, nothing we do matters.

How can I deal with this? I'm so tired of being depressed.

The reason your so depressed is because you have subconsciously started your grieving process early. You are mentally preparing yourself for his death instead of enjoying the time that you have left with your uncle. There are a lot of different things you can do, but the thing I would recommend for you is to try to give yourself a time of the day to allow yourself to grieve. I'd say an hour. Just cry and think about it all you want. Scream if you have to. Then, the rest of your day, try to enjoy yourself. If something comes up (Such as bad news from a doctor regarding his permission). Write it in a little notebook, shut it, and be done until that time of day comes again.

I know this may not work. And I'm really sorry for your loss. Hopefully, what time you have left will be good time.

When I was first starting to have okay days I'd still take any negative as a sign that there was going to be no progress or that my progress was moot. Be careful that's not you.

However, cancer is a pretty depressing topic. Grief is a different one, and one that's totally normal to go through in a time like this.

Don't take the grief as a sign that you can't deal. Sit with the feelings, embrace them, invite them in even, in silence, and offer yourself compassion. I'm so totally serious. It works. Don't fight the natural grieving process-- you will only make it more painful. Accept it and offer yourself some forgiveness for feeling the way you do. Say to yourself- may I be peaceful may I feel loved. And feel gratitude for the times you had. Life is fleeting. Every moment is a gift. Seek out the gifts--- do the trees look beautiful? The sky? How about how you feel when you are simply walking? Do you feel connected to your breath? How do your arms and legs feel as you move? That is important too. Try it even if you're not sure. You have nothing to lose. This is called meditation.