Embarrassing...

So this is a very embarrassing and shameful new symptom of my depression. The past few days I've been so depressed that I've found it really difficult to go to the bathroom, as in actually make it to the toilet. I'm so deeply ashamed and embarrassed. It's impossible to get out of bed and I have to urinate so frequently that I just decided it would be easier to go in my bed. It ends up just making things worse because after what I've done has set in I have been going into meltdown mode because I'm so ashamed. I had to leave the house yesterday for work, so I bought adult diapers so I wouldn't have to wash my sheets everyday and could dispose of the evidence of what I've done. I'm so disgusting and lazy and I feel such a like freak. I just really don't know what to do.

Have you found no purpose? Then make purpose. All suffering arises from an incorrect view. Set your sights upon attaining wisdom , and then you will possess a joy that no one can take from you.

What is it thats got you so down?