i'm worried about career

hi,

this is just a rant.

in april 27 i'll have to either renew the contract with the existing company or i'll have to leave.

i sort of want time to stop. i dont want to make any decision regarding my job. i just want time to freeze n that's it. i got no friends, i go home n just lie around aimlessly.

i dont even know what i want.

Just go with the flow. And try and make friends at your job I guess.

thanks for the reply. i understand things would just change to fantasy world just like that. i'll have to do something about it. its just so tiring at times.

Also try and find something you enjoy doing and go do that and meet others that enjoy doing whatever that is as well. Also, yeah life is tiring. However in the end all you do is rest, so might as well enjoy it now.

Hi tiredofmyself,

do you receive any help with your depression? (medication/therapy) Perhaps it's time to review it?

Big hugs. I hope you make the right decision.

@Oliveira,

I don't receive any therapy or medication. when i tried to contact the psychiatrist he couldnt be reachable. i had just one interaction with him n after that i came to this forum. i'm too scared to go to another psychiatrist.

@Shaw

its tough to enjoy life when i dont understand things well. i mean should i hold grudge or should i just enjoy. it's all very confusing. i stay to myself nowadays, n dont talk much with real life people. as i am often scared of coming across as a fool. plus its very tiring to talk.