Good evening everyone,
I honestly have no clue how i am going to tolerate the next 60years of my life that i'll supposedly live if i reach the average age for males....
I feel more and more upset and angry each day, and more and more down too.
My first post was this (just to give an insight about whats up with me): anger-management/topic158271.html
So now a few weeks moving on from that post, and i just feel more and more down. And the way I see things I cannot be helped, and I am too scared of pain or getting crippled atm to end it early.
I just don't know what to do anymore, I just can not find happiness nor a purpose in life. I have been loosing all the drive to do anything, drifting away from friends, wasting away in my own little virtual world of video games and making electronic music....but I have no outlook in life....I am literally just waiting to die. (don't worry not suicidal...too much of a coward for that). however i am looking forward to my end just so i don't have to find a purpose anymore, or do the things that fuel my anger and sadness.
im srry for rambling