Is it worth it?

Should I suffer endlessly just to prevent others from suffering because of me?

Thank you, I just wanted to know what you think.

Does your Dr. know the current medication you are on is not working? I kept bugging my psychiatrist to true different or additional medication. Now I am really glad I did. Sometimes medications which seem very similar in the way they work on your brain chemistry have profoundly different effects.
If you have not tried ECT yet I would bring it up. It has about twice the effectiveness rate as medications.