Sick of getting up every day

I am useless...

I have dyspraxia and I can't do anything to a decent level, I am so sick of trying to think of what I can do with my life, I have no friends and when I look for old school friends on facebook etc, they all have families, kids, friends etc, I know their lives are not perfect but at least they have some reason to live for, I get up go to work (which I hate), come home, eat, sleep, repeat.

I am 34 and as the years tick on I get more and more depressed, nothing is changing, I'm aware that I have to 'get on out there' etc but because of my condition I am resigned to the fact I will always be inferior to the average person, have social interaction problems and generally even making the effort to socialise takes 10 times more out of me than the average 'normal' person.

If my parents were gone I think I would really think about ending it, but I feel I cannot do this with them still around as it would upset them too much, I know I should seek help from my GP but can't see how this will change the fact I am dyspraxic and this effects every aspect of my life in a negative way.

I am not sure what to do, I just exist and slowly get more and more angry/depressed that i am here, I feel like just going to live out in the wilderness or something away from anyone, but even then it won't changing the fact I am useless.

First of all, please don''t compare yourself to other people. Just because someone is married with kids doesn't mean they are happy. Facebook is false, it's what people use in an attempt to show the world how happy they are when in fact no-one is perfect.

Secondly, what do you like doing? What interests you?? Even if it involves sitting down on a Saturday and watching 10 hours of Netflix - it's ok if it makes you happy.

I know it's hard but I found that when I concentrate on not comparing myself to others and not measuring my happiness by theirs and just accepting my awkward, weird, depressive ways then life feels a little easier to handle.

I hope this doesn't sound harsh, I just know how this feels