Life Is Well And Truly Miserable

What the heck is the point in it anymore? I have very little to live for

I have this skank ######6 transsexualism disese that is ruining my life. It is no surprise so many trans people kill themselves, this is a horrid wretched thing to live with it and I hate it with my entire being

My life was better when I thought I was a boy. Ever since I started to think I was a transsexual my life went down hill

Now I am a binge eating, weight gaining, miserable potential transsexual. I have a sorry state of existence, I am miserable all the time and nobody knows my struggle. I don't even know how to tell anyone

I have horrible ######6 sckening gross images anmd thoughts in my head

I cant ######6 cope

I dunno what to do

bang bang
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Don't kill yourself. It isn't worth it, because things can and will get better. Even though things are trash right now, stick with what you believe in. Just because you're trans, does NOT and should NEVER mean that you should waste a perfectly, beautiful life. I am sending lots of hugs your way. According to the internet, it states that you should have 10 minutes to yourself, everyday. Find some new hobby, do some exercise (don't over exercise), try yoga. Don't ever give up on yourself. Make a statement for all transexual people, and find that there is always a reason to live. Pass on everything you know, and everything that you've been through. Teach people that being trans is something to be proud of (Because it is!). So what, your body isn't perfect? You and you're body should never be perfect, because we weren't born to be. Find something interesting and go for it. Create some dreams for yourself. And if you want something to live for, write a dream journal and make sure you have 100 dreams in there, soon enough you'll start to forget that life was ever so miserable, and you'll be looking forward to write what was happening in your dreams last night. If you don't want to do that then keep a journal and write about what you're day has been like, and what you've done today. Did you wake up? Great! Did you eat? Awesome!
I really hope you take in some of these ideas.
Lots of hugs,
Caitlin. (Feel free to message me, I will be here)

I am really sorry I didn't see this sooner.

There are a lot of communities for trans people to talk to one another and support each other. You need to get involved in a supportive community who understands your struggle, and can help you reach a point of self acceptance. Please PM me and I will give you some leads on where you could go to try to get some help.