My heart hurts but not physically

Every now and then hurtful feelings stir up in me and I feel like I'm out of breath and i have to breathe deeply, and I feel this pain in my heart. I don't think it's physical pain. More like emotional pain like someone punched me right in the heart. I Have to cry to make it go away.

Do you think this can have physical effects on my cardiac muscles? I exercise regularly. But I've been in depression for three years now. I feel hungry for deep human connection that i just can't seem to make or find.

I used to experience something similar to what you describe and once went to my doctor -- I was at work, feeling like my heart wants to jump out of my chest, doctor's office was right opposite my work, so I went there -- and got checked and told my heart is 100% fine and so is my pulse. I couldn't believe it as I was DEFINITELY not feeling like my heart was fine. They told me I was experiencing a panic attack.

Perhaps that could be what you are going through?

I don't know what a panic attack is, but I'm not one to panic. More like feeling hopeless and unsure of what to do or feel. Constantly thinking of what's gonna happen to me fearing I'll be alone forever.

I also didn't feel like I was in panic -- I said "but I'm quite calm other than my heart thing!" to the doctor I think panic attack is just a label like depression that describes a certain range of symptoms. Well, look it up -- I'm not a doctor, may be entirely wrong. Hope it gets better for you in any case.

hahaha..that this comment made me laugh.

"I think panic attack is just a label like depression that describes a certain range of symptoms"

You 'think'?really?loool.

its like saying I think a musical scale is just a label for describing certain notes.
OF CURSE IT IS LOOL