Starting ADs. Again.

Well, today I made the decision to call my psychiatrist and request an earlier appointment than I had to discuss restarting my antidepressants. I am circling the drain and just cannot do *this* anymore. I'm graduating from nursing school in 3 weeks and I have a job as a RN set up - but I can't do *THIS* anymore. I'm good at functioning but I am so beyond unhappy. DBT and Adderall have kept me on course to graduate and I'm reaching that breaking point.

I still see my therapist weekly and he was amazing today. I feel guilty that I have to start up my meds again, I feel weak - "Is needing Insulin weak?" Rationally, I know it's chemical and I need chemicals to help correct it. My boyfriend has been so incredibly supportive, but he can only do so much and can only relate so much. So, thus the post here.

I firmly believe that it takes guts to ask for help. It's "easier" to drop out. And hide from the world. And that's a valid choice. But making a different choice is fine too. There's nothing to be guilty about. The insulin comparison is a really good one. I bet you've seen the cartoon If Physical Health Were Treated Like Mental Health already. Just in case not- https://i.chzbgr.com/maxW500/7937393408/h555F5C81/

You're already doing hard work with the DBT. It's not like you're lying back and shouting "fix me" to the universe. Getting supportive meds is a way of taking responsibility for yourself.