Apathy?

Do any of you, after a depressive episode, become apathetic? Like, you care about absolutely nothing? Even the things that I used to enjoy doing and creating seem so meaningless to me. And, then, sometimes I'm even indifferent to important things, well things that are suppossed to be important, but they don't seem it to me. I think if something sad happened I wouldn't even feel the sadness. Or if I was wisked off on tropical vacation I would even feel happy or excited. I'm just like blah. You ever want to just cry so bad but you can't? I hate feeling feelingless. I would so much rather be depressed than to feel close to nothing. Is this normal for a person with major depressive disorder, and to this extent? I enjoy pretty much nothing anymore. Errrrr I hate being so numb like this. Is this normal? Maybe this is some sort of nueral defence mechanism. I don't know this sucks. I know that apathy is a symptom of depression, but to this extent? I could truely give a rats ass about anything right now

I appreciate your responses
Amy

Amy, i've been like that in the past, when I was younger 15, 16 yrs old I felt nothing, cared about nothing.

I've definatly been there, depression is horrible, but it's treatable.

If you are feeling this way, like there is nothing.. please talk to your T or pdoc about this, it could be anywhere from moderate to severe depression... I used to be in that category, now it's mild.

Hang in here.

well, I have already been told that it is severe by my psychiatrist. Err I just feel so numb. Do you remember getting feelings back? Did it happen abruptly or gradually. I have felt this way before, but never to this extreme. Do you think it could have something to do with the new med I started? I just started taking 300 mgs of budeprion along with the 200mgs of zoloft I was already on.
Thanx for your support Sadgurl. I really appreciate it. It's so good to hear success stories about people conquering their depression. It keeps me hopeful. Thank you for that. I'm so glad that you are better.
I know that I am going to get through this. I will do everything in my power to do so. Even if it means I have to try every med under the sun or even resort to electro shock therapy. I will beat this.

Thanks again,
Amy

to me, that was an episode, but mine last for about 4 months at a time, but now i'm on lamictal, and the last one i had ended in just about two and a half weeks, which is awesome for me, and it partily had to do with my period, those ######6 hormones!!! anywho, i would tlak with my doc about it, i did, and he made it better:)

yes i concur with the OP. i have had many a times like that. sometimes i sit on my couch for over 62 hours straight and watch basketball on tv. sometimes i do not come out of my house for months at a time and sit in my house and drink beer and smoke reefer. i find that a good way to get better is to go out into minneapolis and jump up on some basketball hoops and tear the rims off and sell them to a local thug. it is a great way to make money and it gets you excited for the future.

MarkoJaric55 wrote:yes i concur with the OP. i have had many a times like that. sometimes i sit on my couch for over 62 hours straight and watch basketball on tv. sometimes i do not come out of my house for months at a time and sit in my house and drink beer and smoke reefer. i find that a good way to get better is to go out into minneapolis and jump up on some basketball hoops and tear the rims off and sell them to a local thug. it is a great way to make money and it gets you excited for the future.

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