numb at times since mdd

Had a drug induced mdd episode. Dx bpd and adhd.
Can't take stimulants because it can make me paranoid.
On zoloft and starting epilim.

The problem is I feel numb at times. I have always been a bit what you could describe as brain dead.

My emotions are deregulated as ###$. I am wondering if I can recover, I use music and exercise but I have an ever increasing need for stimulation, however i can't use drugs and i can't afford enough prostitutes,i believe i have autism.

I'm seriously considering becoming a monk.

SBBro wrote:Had a drug induced mdd episode. Dx bpd and adhd.
Can't take stimulants because it can make me paranoid.
On zoloft and starting epilim.

The problem is I feel numb at times. I have always been a bit what you could describe as brain dead.

My emotions are deregulated as ###$. I am wondering if I can recover, I use music and exercise but I have an ever increasing need for stimulation, however i can't use drugs and i can't afford enough prostitutes,i believe i have autism.

I'm seriously considering becoming a monk.

I know what you mean about stimulants, I have been there myself. Not fun.

Maybe you could try to cut out the drugs and prostitutes for a while and give yourself a new beginning. Change your hairstyle, your wardrobe, paint your room. Do whatever you can to feel like things are different and you get a do-over.

Probably the best idea would be to see a therapist.