Reinforcing the Positive. Task

This thread is a good idea, will help people with self esteem I think. Thanks journeyz.

Last night I cooked for my husband and my in-laws.
Today I put out the washing.
And I phoned my doctor and told him stuff I'd been needing to tell him for ages but hadn't been brave enough to do so before.
And the cat came and cuddled up on my lap, which was nice.

Feels like the forum has been quite silent for a while. Anyway I have some positives to reinforce.

I decided to try a keto-diet to see if I could get into ketosis. I cut my carbs to somewehere about 20 gr a day. I was amazed to see how well I could do this. I feel like I found out how diciplined I can be if I set my mind to it.

Had a good talk with someone from work about my work today.

An oppertunity to apply for a next best thing dream-job has come up. (won't get the job but I can try)

Saw a great movie with great music in it, everyday I'm still thinking about it, listening to the music again. Makes me feel good.

this seems like a good place to share some good news in my life.

I've been really unhappy at my job, working as a cashier at staples. the hours suck and the training is a joke. I took the job because they said they would be giving me full time and I figured taking a not exciting or fun job to get lots of hours and benefits was the grownup thing to do and that you're not supposed to love your job, that's why it's a job, lots of people hate their job, I shouldn't be so picky, etc.

yeah, that was the wrong thing to do. so I started looking for work again, and being particular about where I applied - going for management positions, or places I would really love to work, etc. I end up getting an interview for a manager position at a body jewelry kiosk. the district manager is in town for one day and I manage to squeeze in an interview before work, the very next day I get the call that I have the job!

in just over a week I'm headed out of town on my very first business trip to get trained in another city since the girl here is quite sick right now. they're putting me up in a hotel and covering travel costs and all that. 5 days of training out of town then I'm back home and off for a couple days then they're also sending the girl from the other city to my city to work with me my first 2 days on the job at my own kiosk. it feels awesome to know they're putting so much time and money into getting me trained and comfortable after being thrown to the wolves with little to no training by staples. I only have 5 shifts left at staples and I'm so happy I put myself out there applying for management positions when I don't even have any actual formal management experience, because it sure paid off! I decided I had the confidence in myself to know that I could make a good manager because I have strong ideas about what a manager should do and be and they said they really like my leadership qualities and that's why they hired me. so having some faith in myself to do a job I wanted actually got me my dream retail job! so I'm pretty proud of myself right now, and super happy.

Today started out horrible. My anti-depressant makes me agitated sometimes, and it feels like a borderline panic attack. It took me 2 hours to fully calm down a bit.

Things turned around though. I applied for a job, reconnected with some family I hadn't seen in a while, and had a long talk with my mother, who I have had a strained relationship with for years now. We reconciled about 6 months ago, and we had another breakthrough today in our relationship, which feels amazing.

Hey, thanks everyone for posting.
I've been spending quite a lot of time with my gf and have only been on once a week or so.
Glad everyone continues to post

I've started my volunteer work and am currently in the process of arranging hours to work to keep me active. I have been able to tick several things off my to-do list and am making good progress with some tasks. I've been talking to my mum more and after having a serious talk with her she's making more of an effort to talk with me. I've felt better about my outlook on life and don't feel just as lost as i did a few months ago. Spent time helping my gf at her workplace and got to spend time getting to know her friends a bit better.

Hope everyone is doing ok

Journeyz wrote:Hey, thanks everyone for posting.
I've been spending quite a lot of time with my gf and have only been on once a week or so.
Glad everyone continues to post

I've started my volunteer work and am currently in the process of arranging hours to work to keep me active. I have been able to tick several things off my to-do list and am making good progress with some tasks. I've been talking to my mum more and after having a serious talk with her she's making more of an effort to talk with me. I've felt better about my outlook on life and don't feel just as lost as i did a few months ago. Spent time helping my gf at her workplace and got to spend time getting to know her friends a bit better.

Hope everyone is doing ok

Sounds like things are turning around for you,that's awesome.

I am going to the employment office tomorrow to see if they can help me find a better job. I feel a lot better because now I feel like there is hope

Maybe it is something in the air!

Sounds like you guys are taking control of your lives It's a good way to feel better anyway, to feel like what you do or choose to do makes a difference, it gives you options.

Your agitation sounds bad Ressentiment, I know the feeling though I'm not currently on any meds. My antidepressant made me very sleepy all the time. Also have a strained relationship with my mother and have been making these "breakthroughs" every now and then over the past 5 years. It's very tiring to me actually, progress is slow. Oh and I hope your jobhunt goes well, what are your options?

Good to see that you have been doing so well Journeyz. Sometimes the things we try work out
Talking with your mom is always difficult I think haha, sometimes we have to make an effort to connect to our parents even if we would expect them to.

as for myself;
Just got the sweetest compliment from a co-worker that she loves having me as her co-worker *blush*
We're the same young age in a workgroup consisting of 40 year olds and older so we connect really well.

Now that it's getting darker ad colder out there I need to find more positives around me. Missing someone to talk to about these things as I used to be able to do with my therapist.

Tonight I'm bored and tired but i want to kick this thread back to the top. I think it has helped a few people in the past and i think it'll benefit me to try this for another while so here goes.

30/12/15
Got up
Showered and changed
Integrated female clothing into my outfit for the first time in public (hidden from sight)
Went to some car dealerships with dad
talked and made jokes with dealer and helped dad remember questions he had about cars
had lunch
more cars to view
talked to mum for a while
helped resolve family issue (hopefully to be resolved soon)
fixed my dads email problems after 2 hours of troubleshooting - damn metronet accounts haha
posted to the forum a few times
made plans for new years
and built a castle in The Sims

It is quite nice to write everything down.
Hope all is well

Today was pretty good

Got up with my GF
Showered and changed
Went to my GP to talk about Gender Dysphoria and he has referred me to my local clinic (super excited)
Went to the shops and got clothes and picked up my prescription
Went for lunch
Met a friend

Top of the Morning to you. (It's gotta be morning somewhere right!)

Positives this week...I'm too depressed to see any. Sorry