Ok here goes...this could take some time to type
Sunday 10th
-got up
-went for coffee with brother and cousin
-visited a relative i hadn't seen in a few weeks
-had dinner with relatives
-drove to the caravan (being at home was making me stressed and i felt i was annoying my family by just being there)
-met up with friends and socialized
Monday 11th
-got up
-went shopping for food
-played tennis with friends
-socialized
-made dinner for myself (my parents usually prepare my dinner at home as i usually have no motivation to cook or manage my diet)
-took some photos
Tuesday 12th
-got up
-went for a drive to clear my head
-made dinner
survived
Wednesday 13th
-got up
-watched walle (my mood was dropping and walle took my mind off all the s#1t)
-played tennis
-socialized and had a movie night with friends
Thursday 14th
-got up
-played tennis doubles with friends and had a good time
-had dinner at friends caravan
-movie night with friends
Friday 15th
-got up early to meet a friend
-marshalled at a local rally event with a friend (tasks that require social interaction that i don't know make me very anxious so being able to do this was a small step forward)
-had a movie night with friends
-no alcohol
-no SI
-tidied kitchen
Saturday 16th
-got up
-went for ice cream and coffee with friends
-socialized
-went to the cinema with friends
Sunday 17th
-got up
-watched movies with friends
-had dinner with friends
-socialized
-went running (didn't have the motivation for about 10 days so getting out again was good)
-no SI
Monday 18th
-got up
-went shopping with friends (crowds make me anxious as fook, so being able to do this was nice)
-got coffee with friends
-socialized
-movie night with friends
-no SI
Tuesday 19th
-got up (with difficulty)
-went to the shop for a few things i needed
-had lunch
-went out for dinner with friends for a birthday (this normally makes me really anxious throughout the whole night but i took Diazepam before i left which helped me cope and i could actually enjoy the night)
-socialized with friends and their parents
-played pool with friends
-watched movies with friends
-no SI
Wednesday 20th
-got up
-went to the shop
-survived (worn out from Tuesday)
Thursday 21st
-got up
-spent time with friends
-played tennis
-went for a walk
-socialized, played chess, watched movies
-no SI
Friday 22nd
-got up
-went shopping with a friend
-tidied kitchen for parents arriving
-spent time with friends
-walk and stargaze with friend
-movie with friend
-no SI
Saturday 23rd
-got up
-socialized
-got organised to go camping
-watched movies with friends
-went camping
-had a good night with friends
-no SI
Sunday 24th
-got up
-helped pack up camping gear
-watched a movie with friend
-no SI
Monday 25th
-got up
-got packed to go home
-went for ice cream and coffee with friend
-went for a walk with friend
-socialized
-watched movie with friend
-drove home from the caravan with mum
Tuesday 26th
- got up
-talked with friends
-started learning how to buy and sell on the stock market using a virtual stock exchange
-survived
One does not simply recover in a day.
Diagnosed MDD and BPD, and I suspect AvPD.
I feel like I can't go on, but here I am still crawling onward.
Oh look, more $#1T...I was wondering What to do with the rest of my day.